Last night I was told the news about Brian and what is going on, I wonder why I felt blank and did not express tears at that moment! I now realize I was in shock and numb and it was so surreal to me. Today is another story. Of course I am at work and have to do what I have to do, but it is so so hard to stop crying and thinking about him and the family! I wonder why things happen, how does God pick and choose what happens to people and why! I have to say I wish it was me and not him. Last week I had a near fatal situation but for unknown reasons it turned out okay! I would in a heartbeat have switch places with Brian for it to have been the other way around! His life is just beginning, with so much for him to do and see! The worse part is I can not accept this as being right, and for any reason at all! Please God I do not want to loose my faith in you, I truly do not, I just need you to give me and everyone a little hope that he will be able to continue the rest of his life and experience all he was suppose to do! Please, Please, Please I pray to you dear Lord to let there be a miracle and give him back the quality of life he so deserves dear Lord of ours!
