Old and restless!

LOL wish I could say young and restless, but it is what it is!!  Feeling big time like help me, I need something new mood!  Makes for a ruff day when you feel like that!  Good thing is it is almost 11:00 and soon I could eat my lunch and fill my face with my chili and cheese lunch! Protein at its finniest!
It is quite today, which makes for a long day, I need phones ringing off of the  hooks, people coming in non stop and just plain old excitement in my bones! Hate feeling this way, and I know it will pass, but getting really tire of it in the long scheme of things.  I think the feeling really is I want to feel usefull not useless, does that make sense to you!  

Start of a new week!

New rules will be and I state: I will have positive thoughts, no cares for other peoples attitudes or faults, their problems not mine. Worry about my state of mine and my health first and foremost! All that matters is the people I love which is a lesson I have learn from other peoples actions! Depend on myself and do not count on others to help!  Learned there is good in people but a lot more bad in people! Learned to give others chances to be the person you thought they were, learned the hard way, you can only give so many chances and in the end they are a lost cost and not worth the energy or the time!  Learned that there are a lot of haters in the world that wish you to your face lots of luck and behind your back stab the crap outta of you!
Did it take years of my life to learn these lesson, yes it did! Do I believe this , yes I do!  Do I want to go through the rest of my life with that feeling, no I don't, do I have a choice in the matter, no not really!  Do I ever think people will change, no I don't. Do I think I am perfect, not by a long shot, but I do know I purposely do not set out to hurt others, and make them feel useless and alone!  End of story!