My son

I am in the mood to talk about my son, why I don't know, I guess because I am one of the lucky ones.  He is such a good kid, by that I mean no drinking and drugs and hanging on streets. What else can a parent ask for, really at 18 soon to be 19, he is not partying non stop and sleeping to all hours of the day! Am I lucky or what, I say I was, don't get me wrong he likes to have fun but fun to him is not about drinking and getting so messed up you cannot even stand. He is responsible to the point of knowing that if he wants to be a police officer he has to have a perfect record with no problems at all!  He loves family and he really enjoys being a part of all the occasions, all of the time.  Yes, I would say I am very lucky indeed!

Looking around on Blogspot!

Everyone has such great Blogs, and so professional looking, boy I wish I knew how to get mine to look like that! I am so computer illiterate it is sicking for sure! I have no idea whats so ever on how to put things on it other that some pics and to write my oh so boring article/blog reports! Of course you know I do not mean Brian, I mean the everyday, not so exciting blogs I post on it! But you know something, even if it is boring to all, it is great therapy for me to let out all stress and frustration I might feel with whatever is going on in my life at that particular moment!  So in that respect I guess my blog is doing what it is suppose to do, and what I want it to do for me which is vent, vent, and a whole lot more of venting.  LOL

Easter Day

First post all weekend, no chance with the holiday and all the running around!  All in all it was very nice.  Brian is on the road to recovery, do not know how badly damage his brain is as of now, but something tells me we are going to get the old Brian back!  When you are told that he is going to most not likely come out of the coma and the next day his eyes open and he understands the command of what you are saying, you have to know that anything is possible with the brain. He is a fighter for sure and I have a feel good feeling that he will be the way he used to be!  It will not happen overnight, but it will happen. 100% sure of it!

So Happy!

Brian is improving, slowly but surely he is coming along! His mom said his eyes were open and he was watching TV and is responding to request to squeeze their hand.  He has not spoken yet because he has tubes down his throat, but he is trying to push it out with his tongue. It is a start and we could not be happier for this miracle that God has given. Keep the prayers coming please because his journey is just beginning! 

Leaving work Early today!

So happy leaving early today, want to go to hospital to see how Brian is making out and see the family!
No matter how much I try to take my mind off of it, there is no way in hell I can.  I just pray a miracle will happen and he comes out of the coma. Time will tell, it just  the wait is so agonizing for all!

Good Friday!

Today is Good Friday, may all good things happen to all, and to all I love!, May God help Brian come back to all that love and need him!  I pray dear lord our savior in all that is holy!  Brian open his eyes yesterday and squeeze his dad's hand 4 times on command! The doctors still say he is in a coma, maybe he is but I truly think he is trying to come back to those he loves, and he will!

Ruff time today!

Last night I was told the news about Brian and what is going on, I wonder why I felt blank and did not express tears at that moment! I now realize I was in shock and numb and it was so surreal to me.  Today is another story. Of course I am at work and have to do what I have to do, but it is so so hard to stop crying and thinking about him and the family!  I wonder why things happen, how does God pick and choose what happens to people and why! I have to say I wish it was me and not him.  Last week I had a near fatal situation but for unknown reasons it turned out okay!  I would in a heartbeat have switch places with Brian for it to have been the other way around!  His life is just beginning, with so much for him to do and see!  The worse part is I can not accept this as being right, and for any reason at all!  Please God I do not want to loose my faith in you, I truly do not, I just need you to give me and everyone a little hope that he will be able to continue the rest of his life and experience all he was suppose to do! Please, Please, Please I pray to you dear Lord to let there be a miracle and give him back the quality of life he so deserves dear Lord of ours!