Not good!

Fighting some kind of stomach virus, or at least it feels like that. It started on weekend and even today I feel like crap, big time!  All I keep saying is not now not now, tonight have to finish shopping for food for party on Sat. than I have to prepare it all Thursday and Friday. Lots of running around to do in between it all and feeling the way I do, is not going to be a good experience at all. This is the worst of timing ever.  I thought my stomach was getting back to feeling better but today the pains and rumbling are there and hurting like the dickens. Just have to zone it out and move along the best I could..  I have the lap band so of course the first thing my family thinks of something is wrong with it and than they proceed to lecture me. LOL My son Robbie is the worse, if he sees me throw up and that is only if I eat a tad to much, he freaks big time.  Oh well at least I know they care. But I am really not in the mood for lectures at this point!

What the future holds!

I must say I have no Idea, but I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason.  My future endeavors seem very uncertain right now.  For some unknown reason I am a little excited and a little scared right now. Of course that is what is expected after you are used to the same for all these years.  But the excitement of new and unexpected is very appealing to me. I really do need that little push to make sure I succeed with all I want to do..  No choices are in the horizon just fact that things are going to change, and so will I.

Great weekend!

It really was one of the best weekends, ever if I say so myself.  Weather was holding up and I did get loads of stuff done, which always makes me feel good!  This weekend coming is Robbie's graduation/birthday party so on wed. the cooking begins! Bake Ziti, Sausage and peppers, and my husbands famous meatballs which I can never seem to make enough of.  I wish I could have had it in a hall but he chose the California trip so had to make it in backyard. Would have loved to have everyone but just could not do it!  Yard not big enough for that so that's a bummer. Would of could of should of, my motto is it is what it is and make the best of it!  Always works for me, why change it now!!!. On June 19th is graduation day! Boy time flies. I still could remember holding him in my arms and just not believing he was mine and he was finally here! A new part of his life and our life is upon us and I cannot wait to see what is in store!

Proud mom Indeed!

I said it once and I will say it a trillion times, I am one proud mom, Robbie received his scholarship monies yesterday for college . I was so proud of him and so are the teachers who chose him for the scholarship. I found out this morning he received it because the teachers voted for him and that made me even happier. His counselor Mrs Mishir said he work hard and came a long way and deserved it!  She also said that knowing the type of parents we are that will will push him to keep it up, and last but not least she thank us for being great parents, how cool is that!  The best job in the world is to be a parent and she thanked me!  The next 4 years is going to be a challenge, but I am up for it!  What I mean by that is Robbie is the type of kid that wants it all, just like most all kids and I have to remind him that the rewards will come in time and be well worth it! Never give up is going to be a big part of my vocabulary for quite some time!

Memory of my dream!

I was reading an article a young women wrote about dreams she had and would write about. It brought back a beautiful dream I would have a lot and it always brought me back to a time, that I swear I felt I lived there.  It always started with a large house and I mean large like a mansion type.  I remember the rooms as if I lived there and even the furniture was so real, It had this gigantic room with the most beautiful furniture and a fireplace and so much more, it felt so so real, but the best part of the dream is when I wanted to hide and I would go though these secret rooms and no one could find me.  I would be reading or painting and it was such a beautiful feeling of calm and peacefulness. I would wake up in the morning and always remember that dream because it felt more real to me there than being where I was!  I had the same dream for years and I can still picture it now as if it was yesterday!! Going to sleep for me was magical!  I sometimes wonder if I really was there in another time!  There was no faces and people just me and this magical mansion in a place I truly believe I once was.

Horoscope says!

It says stay out of drama with a little more added to that, but really are you kidding me, drama is my middle name. LOL Drama follows me around like a fish in water, (I used that saying could not think of another one so fast) anyway, drama finds me all the time for some reason.  I start days of saying great day and than the drama follows almost always.  I have tried relaxation tapes something like meditation Cd's. and who come in either my husband or son and they say what are you doing, I say meditating and they just laugh and say I am nuts. People pay big money for that kind of stuff and they think I am nuts, go figure. I will lay on the bed close my eyes and listen to the waves and sounds on the Cd and than I hear mom, mom, mom, of course I am in a calm state so I do not answer, if I told him once I told him 100 times when you see me laying in bed and not answering I am not dead I am meditating (lol) and still he needs to brake my calm for me to answer him.  I love him to death but will he ever learn is the question! That is where the drama begins, and the Italian temper comes flying!  You want drama you got it!!!

Start of a new day!

Beautiful weather at least right now, feeling good about myself  is a plus of course and very excited because my son Rob will be presented tonight with his scholarship, another proud moment added to the many I have experienced with him! He will officially graduate on June 19th but next Sat. we are having his graduation/ birthday party at the same time, have no time at all to throw two separate shin digs with the Virginia and California trips coming.  Only so much time in a day as they say LOL. I have to say this is going to be a busy, busy summer and it will fly by so face it is going to make my head spin.  Fun stuff for sure guys, now the next big thing to do win the Lottery than my life will be complete!!! LOL Later my friends!