Worry worry worry!

Hi guys, It is not a good feeling when you worry about things you have no control over, not a good feeling at all!  I just for once would love to get up and spend the day worry free!  I always wonder why does this have to happen to me!  What did I do to deserve this sort of situation I am in!  I am not able to discuss my reasons for feeling the way I do on my blog, it would not be the right thing to do, but to be true to my followers I do have to let you know what I am feeling a little because it is me, a part of my life,what sort of blog would it be if I did not fill you in on the ups and recently quite a few downs I experience  every day of my life!   No one walks around with a happy face blaster there permanently, that's for sure! LOL We all know life is not always fair but it is always good to be alive and to know that you are loved even when you are feeling down and low!  Oh well tomorrow is another day, time will tell and I have to believe all will be okay in the end!  That is how I proceeded with life (my) and it has never let me down yet! 

Forever day!

It really feels like a forever day today, I really hate when I feel like that!  I have no Idea why I am in such a funky mood today!   I really have to span my horizons and quick!  I love what I do and I mean no offense against anyone at all, its me just me!  I feel like I just want to spread my wings and try other things in my life before my life is over! I really can not be the only person in this great big world that feels like that at least once in their life!  I guess after my meltdown on Sunday, it took a toll on me more than I thought. Feeling really restless today and confused, confusion is not a feeling I want to have, and what makes it even worse is when you can not get rid of that feeling and it takes control of you!  Being a strong willed and strong minded person, it really sucks big time!  All I could say is shake the feeling Fran (me) and get on with Gods plan for your life what ever it may be.

Meltdown!

Yup, that's is what I had for sure, have no idea why , yea I know why it pretty much went like this, Friday was in great mood, knew I had a 3  day weekend to look forward to so I was feeling great! Saturday came still in great mood doing things that needed to be done! Sunday, meltdown day, why you ask, okay I will tell you, after busting my butt in the house and running around, a little help is not much to ask, so what is so hard with asking my husband when you let the dogs out, and they come back in please make sure Bella, which is in the time of month frame( like us women) to put back on her diaper, so it does not get on rug or furniture, if I said it once I have said it 20 times.  Well you guessed it, it did not sink in and me and my Italian temper just lost it!  I could have won an Oscar for this one, I ranted and raved for a good 2 hours and what I did not say about that and a thousand other things that I wanted to say to him or anyone that got in my way(for that matter)!  I'm human right, give me a break please, I work at a job with stress, I come home clean,and more cleaning, shop for grocery, do wash take care of dogs(5) keep up with the yard and have a clean and spotless house which I am sure you all appreciate.  I vented and walked around for most of the day with a puss on my face that for me was not in character at all!  Do you want to know what my husband says to me, why are you in a bad mood, what started you off!  Guess what guys he started me off all over again, I don't think he will ask that question again! LOL. As for Monday it was a perfect day! The yelling and screaming turned out to be the best medicine for me in the long run, do I think he and my son got the message, hell no, but it made me feel better in the long run.

Quite!

Well it's Labor day weekend and everything is quite at the work place.  We all want to get the last hooray for the summer!  To be honest I just want a nice quite weekend and just relax.  Well, we were told that Rob's scenes for movie do not start till Jan. which is a good thing.  The reason why is it gives him more time for acting classes to get the craft down better. He really wants to give this his all so the more time he takes the classes the better for him!  I am a firm believer that all things happen for a reason, his scenes not starting in Sept. is a good thing! College is starting and acting class at night believe me its a good thing, nothing like being overwhelmed all at once! That is horrible, so now I have a little bit more piece of mind that all will work out just fine. A plate is round right, only so much could go on it. LOL I like that one!  Anyway guys, not much to say and to tell you the truth, I am in the lazy mode today, and fingers are just not cooperating with me!  Have a wonderful end of summer (or at least that is what they tell us) fling. Enjoy

September and fall almost here!

September is almost here, fall is the time of year I love the most, its the beginning to holidays and now it is the beginning and new start for my son in the next part of his life!  Adulthood, College, and all his dreams coming true!  He will start acting classes with a great teacher, preparing himself for his movie which I believe should start shooting in mid-Sept. From what I am hearing they are getting everything ready and are fixing up loose ends!  He has his script in hand and just waiting!  Lots going on and so ready to join in the excitement of it all! I just know in my heart that all will go well and he will fly!

Purpose!

Do you ever sit and wonder what purpose you can make in ones lifetime, such as myself is thinking right now!  After my trip to Los Angeles, I wonder, what could be done for those in need in our own country!  Helping other countries is all well and good, but I wonder about the USA, the needs that are needed here.  Are we really doing enough for our own!  I know what your thinking, she goes on a trip and comes back and now she wants to change the world!  No, that's not what I want to do, I would just like to be able to lend a helping hand!   I really have never been around as many homeless people as I was in LA, and it really affected me to the very core of my soul.  I know you are probably thinking, like I always did, there is work for people, go get a job like everyone else.  I am now very ashamed of myself for thinking and feeling like that!  I realize now some people make there own problems and most people have no choice at all!  I figure(as much as its worth) that all the people I seen with all there belongings living in streets are not doing it by choice but because they have no choices, if we believe that these people want to live like that, than we must be crazy! I am confused and feeling useless right now, it is not a good feeling at all to have and I really need to find a way that I could help others in need or at least try! Most people live week to week like I do, you try the best you can with what you have, I worry so much about me and mine that I forget about them, (others a lot less fortunate than me).
Just a little compassion, really does not hurt anyone. Its time at least for me to think of others and not always about me and mine!

Still tired!

Do you believe, I am still exhausted from my LA trip, site seeing really wares you down.  Starting to get back a little more energy now, whew that reminds me need to take my vitamins after writing this blog, LOL maybe it will help. I forgot to tell you all, I went on a tour of Warner Brothers studio, learned a lot about sound stages and how they change everything. They shoot The Ellen show there and we sat in audience seats when guide told us how it is filmed each day!  The surprisee of the tour is when they took us to the old series set of the Friends , the cafe set where the cast would sit there and Lisa Kudrow would play and sing the Guitar!  The Guide took a picture of my family in the chair which is so cool! Like I said we ran around so much I keep forgetting little things we did!  My son climbed this mountain on Zuma beach and the pictures are so awesome and beautiful, and wait until I show you a picture of this sunset we experienced on the Sunset cruise we went on, the deepest orange I have ever seen so far in my life, other than a picture, was there right in front of my face!   Amazing!!!  I said it before and sorry I am saying it again, I needed that vacation so much!  I laughed till I hurt and we even recorded ourselves driving in the minivan we rented, there was six of us so we needed room! Now, for one minute picture this, 4 adults and 2 young men!  1-24yrs old and 1-19yrs old., for reasons we all know those two twain's don't mix, but on this trip it did and we had a ball! Overtired and all the running around and the traveling in a car with 6 people always make for good times and good laughs and I really needed that! Now back to the real world!