Longest week!

I have to say this is the longest week ever!  I feel like I have been through the mill, (when to be honest I haven't, not buy a long shot) but the stress and heat is not working well in my favor!  I just want it to be over already and the weekend be here!  The weather is suppose to get a tad better, thank you lord!  Surprise, other than what I talked about, today is a day I don't have much to say!  Maybe I just am not in the mood to talk or even think a lot!  Who knows, I am in a bad mood and can not seem to snap out of it!  Home, I want my home, now right now! Later all, if anything happens that is good I will be back if not, see ya tomorrow!

Some people just get me?

I swear I am getting way to old for drama and associating myself with not nice people.  I can not wait till I am starting a new road in my life without the drama and all the crap I deal with because I have to! Like I say life is way to short to deal with things that you do not need to deal with. I know this blog is not making much sense to most, its a read between the lines post and nothing more could be said, but I know what it means and I am the most important person right now.  Its all about me!  How I feel and how other people make ME feel!  So tired of it really!  Do people out there really like to make people feel like they are not worth much, I would have to say the answer is yes there is! I know some!

Out of the Clear!

Hey everyone, a new day has begun and I am so ready for it!  Still waiting on whether my son got the part for the movie. He has his fingers cross and I think what ever other part of his body that could be crossed is LOL. Yesterday he brought up his friend again who just got killed in a car crash, it has made an impact on him and he still cannot believe that she is gone!  So hard to handle for a young person. When he brings things up to me you know he needs to talk about it, kids at his age really sometimes do not want discuss much with their parents hardly ever!  That's is fine by me, he can talk to me anytime he wants that's what moms are for.  Gotta go for now, you all know I will be back!

I suprise myself!

I really do, I cannot believe I have so much nonsensical things to say. My thoughts and feeling just start coming out of me when writing. I just think to myself wow Fran if only you liked school and did not have ADD (which now I know in later years was probably what I had) you could have really have been somebody. I know I am somebody, I am me but just think if I really learned, I mean really learned how to use the big words and the right paragraphs and how to make a story, boy what would I be able to write down on paper with this crazy mind of mine if only I would have learned like I should have, I could write and express myself the right way!  Now of course, I am a big stickler on telling the young  to make sure you get a good education and learn. I wish I was told that enough times instead of staring out the class room window! I wish I would have just tried harder and just focused more, but it was not meant to be. I know another sad story, not really, you want to know why because I am right now doing what I always wanted to do and that is write what is in my head and let everyone know what I am feeling, no Pulitzer prize here I know but I am enjoying every minute of what I am capable of doing and that is letting my feelings out to all!  Okay done for now until tomorrow and guess what 20min. to go and I am done!

Who needs a sauna!

Just go to New Jersey and its yours for the taken and right now with this heat wave, so is a lot of other states.  I had to go to bank for work and I went outside and the heat just was like pow right in the face! I like hot weather but this is to hot and since I do not have Raquel Welshes body, clothes are a must. LOL To much information, I know whats a girl (women) to do but just be honest and come out with it!  The T-shirt look is good, but a bathing suit top would be a whole lot better!  Fran, just keep dreaming, maybe in another life, if you do not come back as a dog, you will have the perfect body to go along with a perfect face, but not this time around!  AHHH to dream, okay end of that issue and time to move on to next, yes one more hour to go and I am outta of here!  I don't know about you but, when the end of the day comes it such a great feeling to be going home!  I feel that way on a Friday, knowing that for 2 days I can do what ever I want to do without being told to do this or to do that!  I am in control and I love it! But you know what the funny part is that when Sunday comes along and you know the next day is work, I am not upset at all that I have to go!  Years ago when I was a kid I so hated Mondays, I really felt horrible on Sunday nights and I made myself miserable.  I knew I had school the next day, I hated school. I now came to the conclusion that I really do not mine my job at all, but I really do need the 2 days to recuperate and than I am ready for the daily grind of the treaded Monday!

What could have been!

Tension was ruff today, but all is well on the western front (so to speak) all in all it is turning out to be a nice day and that makes me happy!  Things happen and personalities clash but everything always turns out good, in the long run!  Thank God for that!  Two more hours than home and relaxation!   With all the things happening around me it makes me glad that all I love is safe and sound!  Hearing about my sons friend really gets me thinking on how a life can get snuff out in a blink of an eye.  I really try not to be that type of person who walks around with the word morbid thoughts on my face, but being sad for others always makes my mine go in a hundred different directions and makes me always remember life is so short!  I hate that, everyone should live forever and a day! But God had other plans so new batches of us get made each and every day and the old and sometimes young have to go, go figure right, the way of the world..  To change the subject, LOL did I say things were running smoothly well guess what they went back into tension mode again!!  I just want calm!

Reality hits again!

Each and every day is a blessing for all of us, reality has hit again with the loss of my son Robbie's friend Cynthia, she was killed in a car accident yesterday and it hit Rob hard!  He said mom, she just moved to South Carolina from the next town over and she loved it so much!  She was 18 yrs old and her life was cut down so short!  She was driving her car and a man who had a heart attach crashed directly into the driver side of her car killing her instantly it turned out to be a 6 car collision and she was the only one that died!  She had her seat belt on and followed all the rules and still she was in harms way! Life is not fair for sure and you have to wonder why these things happen, and who is the chosen few that get picked at such a young age and for no apparent reason!  I hope that God has a reason for taken her so soon and she has a mission to come back and look over all those that love her so much!  I know that Robbie is trying to understand the reasons but it is very hard for him to grasp the finality of it all even at the age of 19 years old!  Kids always believe they will live for ever because they are young!  As we all well know not always!