Feeling good!

I am feeling back to normal with all the drama that has unfolded in the last month!  For me it feels like it is in the past and its time to move on!  The storm that blew though our state is the worse we have ever seen, it scares me to death that it could happen again! I feel for all those that want this in there past but are still dealing with all the hardship this has caused in their life's.  I listen to the news and they are saying about the climate change and how this could effect all of the east coast in the future. Being a New Jerseyan and never having to deal with this type of weather makes getting though this so much harder.  I always wonder how all those states who get the very bad hurricanes and tornado's every year deal with it over and over again!  They loose everything and built it back up just to loose it all over again!  I guess you have to do what you have to do, and only the strong will survive! My state of New Jersey is strong and we will survive and prosper once again, that is one thing I am the most sure of!

Normal, where are you!

Need to get back to normal, if that is possible.  One minute electric is on and you think great we are back to normal and than!!!   You guest it off it goes for maybe 3 hours and than back on again!  The good part of this story is it is coming back on.  I feel so bad on what everyone is going though still in there lives.  I sit here with a roof over my head with heat and electric and I am complaining about the lost of electric for a short time.  Smack me in the face please, a good one real hard and make it hurt will ya!  We are spoiled people at least that is the way I am feeling right at this moment!  Normal is almost back for us now in my area, the beaches I grow up with are gone the rides I went on as a child are no more!  My memories of my mom waiting and looking at us patiently are still there but the place where should would stand were claimed by the ocean!  So so sad, words can not even explain how I feel at this moment as a tear rolls down my eyes! Being pretty much content in my life, makes changes very very hard to accept!  But it really is the truth when they say you can not stop Mother Nature!

The Halloween that was'nt!

I was talking with my husband and said I cannot even believe there was no Halloween this year for the kids of NJ! All the towns in my area pretty much cancelled the kids walking the streets because of the fallen trees and down wires. I heard maybe this town or that town will be allowed out from 12noon till 4pm here and there! Without communication in lots of area word did not get to all! I had a lot of candy with no kids to eat it!  I really feel so bad for the kids, this year  really was the Halloween that wasn't! Who would have thought that would ever happen here!  In all my 56 yrs of life never once did I miss a Halloween until now! Instead of me eating all the candy I have given a lot away for the kids to enjoy!  No, it is not the same but there will be a next year and the year after that and after that again and again!
Kids always prevail in the end, and we as parents fill for them the most, but of course that is what parents do the best!

Not on track at all!

Today is one of those days, where I feel like I am in a fog with no way out!  10 days of cold and 2 days to thaw out is not enough. lol.   Thank you God for not letting our electric go off once again and keeping us warm through the night!  I pray for all those without and count myself very lucky and fortunate at this time! Power for those I know went down again last night but it did come back on. Trying to get back on track seems a little harder than usual in every aspect of my life, but with time for me at least things will fall into place. Not much else to say right now, all seems a dream and I wish I could wake up and all things would be good again!  I need to remember, as I am sure we all do that time does heal and we are strong people and will prevail in the end!

Not all but some!

I have to write this, some not all of the police in Rahway NJ, need a good dose on how to treat people with respect and a little concern also. My brother-in-law was on line waiting for gas at Shell gas station on St. George ave. in Rahway people overheard the person who runs the station talking to a police officer and the officer saying you have to give me $100.00 an hour to protect the area which the owner a women said really, okay I will just call city hall and the captain and tell him what you want an hour, of course he (the police officer turn around and worked for what he was really suppose to get and it was not 100.00 an hour! Come on price gauging! Than I was on a line and this older gentleman said to me another police officer again in Rahway was so nasty to him just because he was waiting on a line before the gas station was opened. He said to me I could see if I looked like some teenager with a mouth who was going to start trouble but I am a 65 yr old man in a Plymouth who just wanted gas. He was so upset for no reason at all. Now is that the way a cop should act? He said the way this officer talk to him like with complete disrespect and like he was a complete trash. Someone should tell them to just do their jobs and shut the hell up, like they think they could tell people to do!  Stress was high no doult in my mine, but if you are not causing any problems their is no need to treat a person like they are a hoodlum, that's not what wearing a badge is about!  I think a police officer should get evaluated at least every 5 years to make sure like a teacher they can still do the job! I mean really if you could treat a teacher like that why not a police officer. Think about it, some officers out there should not be even able to carry a gun if they have an anger problems at all! I understand being a police officer is very dangeous in this day and age but a good cop knows pretty much a good situation from a bad one.  In a time of crisis, people do not need cops to be the bad guys they are there to serve and protect the public not treat them like shit! My son wants to be a cop, all I said to him is being a cop is not about who you think you are its about taking pride in what you do, its a job, there is loads of crap out there, you just have to know the difference, a badge does not give you the right to step on people!  Please understand me there a loads of great cops out there, but sometimes you get a few that make people judge them all!

10 days! (Hurricane Sandy)

Hi everyone, it has been a long journey, for my family!  No, no flooding for us, no our house did not get ravished by the ocean, I truly feel for all those that lost everything they owned! I was one many people that lost electric and food and all things that we are use to in our everyday life. We are spoiled by all the luxuries in our life, electric, heat, TV, looking good if you are a women and if you are a typical male, Sundays on the couch looking at football!  Warmth and light,  food in the fridge and enjoying your home knowing it is there for you and your family is by far the most wonderful thing in my life. After this I will never take what I have for granted again, I promise you that! After what little I have been through by far is a wake up call on how fast things change.  I cannot even fathom what people who have lost everything is going through right now! If I am being honest with myself, I have had a lot of selfish moments of feeling sorry for myself which I am not embarrassed at all!  In my area, for the last 10 days it has been no gas for cars lines and lines of people waiting in the cold, no heat and light and searching for places to get food!  Businesses after businesses closed and panic for everyone!  Street after street of trees on houses, roads closed and trying to find ways to those in the next town over.  Somewhere that took only 5min. to get to will take an hour or more. I was pissed off more than once when I was told by certain individuals, people have it worse than us, which of course I understand that but I don't need a person who gets all there privileges back 3 days into the storm and acts like I as a person have no rights or feelings at all for those people who have lost everything while they go home and are in there nice warm house and eating a hot meal with there love one! My answer to that person is look at yourself before you open your  mouth! Are you telling me I do not have the right to be upset that my life is upside down and I do not have the right to say I am cold and tired, really.  Any lost is a great loss no matter where,who and what people occur!  A person of older years living in the dark without heat and electricity for days is bad!  Being afraid of where your next meal is, is bad, wondering where your next pay check is coming from is bad, wondering if you have a job to go back to is bad! Wondering if the tree on your house that just caved in on your roof will be covered by Insurance is bad!  So please don't tell me we do not have it ruff we do, maybe not like others that loss all but enough to know we might loose it all too!  It is never about who has it the worse it should be about who needs help no matter what or where it is!  A selfish person is to me the person who says it, and half the time the person who says it is usually just worried about themselves in the long run! Thank god for people who really care about all people, not just some!

Horoscope update! Aries-10/26/12

This one is good and boy does it relate to my life, It reads: You can spot irritable people at a distance. If you can't avoid them all together, you take care not to arouse antagonism on any level.  Really now how do you do that, I will tell you how!  I am around irritable people 24/7, just a statement, a question will set of fireworks that will make you say, what am I doing here!  It is so much easier said than done but you do what you have to do!  Sure I would love not to even have to deal with a person or persons like that but certain things are not under my control and being made to look stupid has been a big part of my life the last  14 yrs you kinda get used to it!  But and there is a but,  I know, me , myself and I know, I am far from stupid and that's all that really matters.  No one and I mean no one will take my worth from me come hell or high water!  Sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Try as you may, not going to happen! Oh and I forgot you could take that to the bank!