Why do they even bother!

Hollywood couples, why do they even bother to get married!  Most of them are not made out of the same mold as other (normal people) that is.  Temptation is all around them all the time.  I am not saying they don't start off with the idea that this marriage will last forever, but they should know it will not!   Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes, divorcing really.  For Godsake he was jumping up and down on national TV that he has found the love of his life and they will be together forever and a day!  Really Tom, what happened?  LOL
It is really emparsssing to see this and it sets such a bad example for all the young people of today to see there Idols all go through marriages like it is not a life deal! No one tries any longer to make things work in a marriage, movieland and even reg. everyday people.  I have been married come Oct. 30 years and believe me when I tell you, it was not a cup of tea!!  Now don't get me wrong I was not beaten or abused, that is another story in itself and a cause to go your seperate ways big time. What I am saying is that in marraige things change and change and change even more, you work at it and keep working at it, I did and I am not settling that is for sure I just made a commiment to stick it out and I did, with no regrets at all! To each there own is true and you could tell me that.  But quitting and ending it seems to be the biggest thing right now in married land and in Hollywood they should not even bother!  Charlene Theron seems to get it she says she will never get married.  I guess she does'nt want to waste her time.

Writing block!

I must have tried to sit down about 10 times and write what was on my mine, and everything was coming out wrong.  Writers block is so true.  Even when I am writing this article I am back spacing and changing words and forget about  the spelling, word spelling is the only thing that is keeping me going!  lol  I have so much I want to write about , like people who inspire me, people who push themselfs to the limit, people who love others uncontionally and so on!  The list goes on forever!   I have such a great story for a book with a great title, but I need that push to get it started and the people power to help me put it together!  Some how writing for me, even if it is not the best has become my best friend!  Who would of thought that I would enjoy it so much, not me thats for sure!  I really surpised myself  but in a good way, So much out there to write about, everyday experiences of lives that are just beginning and of lives that have ended and should be told!  And look at me now, like magic my writing block has disapeared and my best friend is back!

Audition!

My son Robbie, just got the news that he will have an audition for an film.  For the lead role, his picture was submited and  he was chosen to audition!  Its a Indepentent film, he is to play a ladies man/ drug dealer with tatoos on body (fake of course) who carries a gun, so unlike my son but thats what acting is all about! Monday morning he is going so he needs to study his monologue and act like a tuff guy!  The name will be Mark Torres a stone cold thug, I was just told!  He really better act the part to get this part for sure!  He said mom you got to start somewhere, so its a start for sure!!  Crossing the fingers! 

Angels don't always have wings!

I was watching a show last night and one of the actors made a statement, she said Angels do not have to have wings sometimes it is just a person who comes into your life and does something special. I thought it was quite beautiful and I wanted to share!  It is true, angels are around us daily some seen and some not!  People are angels, they are caring and loving and norishing others each and every day!  I believe that everytime you are there for someone, no matter how big or small, a problem,, a smile, a gesture, a hug a helping hand, you are an angel!  Remember that and live by that rule!  I'm pretty sure you all have angels in your life!  When I am down or not feeling well, wether it be family or friends all my angels flock around me!
I thank you all, my Angels!

California Dreaming!

I love that song, and I cannot wait to go to California in August, so excited.  Do you believe we have not even gone on our trip this year and my husband has already find out where we are going next year!  Someone told him about a place in Florida near the keys that he was going to since 1978 and just loves it so much.  The sand is white and the hotel is right on the beach.  My husband is more excited about that than California, go figure!!  I know that once he gets to California he will love, just wants to be a ball buster.  The funny part is that when I first met my husband back in the day, not even 3 weeks later I had a schedule trip to California with my cousin Donna and we were away for 10 days. Everyday I would talk to him and all he would ever say is I wish I was there!..   Well guess what Bob, you will be in about 7 weeks. LOL

Doctors appointment!

Well off to see Doctor at 5:30 today and hope the news is that I could put off any operation until Sept. at least!  I will promise to be very careful of not picking up any heavy objects for sure!  I really hate all this stuff, why can't things just run smoothly, I know, it would be way to easy for that!  LOL  Have to see Doctors 2 times this week and next week, Monday and than Friday for them to check out my band to make sure all is okay with that!  What a pain in the butt this is. I love when I am in top form and healthy as an ox, but we all know that is not always the situation!  It sucks to get old!  What am I saying, I could have gotten a hernia at 28 yrs old too. Being 56 is not the end of the world, I still have a few more good years before everything starts shutting down, I hope! Think positive Fran, thing all will be fine!

Day almost over!

I have a nice relaxing weekend, which is a good thing with my hernia acting up! Doctor told me plain and simple, be careful and that is my plan.  If weather is nice, tomorrow might get a little sun, since I am white as a ghost and need a little color!  Pain in side has calm down and I am hoping I could push operation back to at least Sept. which will be better in the long run!  Its all up to the Doctor and what she sees, and if I promise to be real careful I could get away with it!  I hope!!! 

Kids, right from wrong!

One of my blogger Friends brought to my attention, that not all parents are to blame, and in all honesty he or she is right!  In a fit of anger I wrote about the parents being to blame, I guess I figured a parent knows their child's particular personalities and would know if their child would be that way because it is hard to hide rudeness or any other trait that they might have.  But my blogger friend is right, kids know what is right from wrong and should be held responsible for their own actions.  But I do feel guidance from parents and showing them right from wrong is the responsibility of a parent!  Now, them following it is not always a parents fault! So to all parents out there, when a child reaches a certain age, right from wrong is not a question anymore but plain common sense!  Thank You blogger friend for reminding me of that!  Just plain out need to vent!

Respect!

Crazy ass kids, no respect.. When I look at that video of the older women getting harassed on the school bus and being treated with no respect at all, it makes me sick to my stomach.  Who is raising these kids and what type of people are they, that they don't tell there kids, you do not treat people like that!
I have to wonder at all if they were even disciplined by their own parents and I hope to hell that they were from outside sources.  They for sure should be, no one should get away with that type of behavior, the elderly for sure or any other human being!  I am not a perfect parent, and make no claims to be.  But if my son ever and I mean ever treated anyone like that, he could be twenty years old even I would not tolerate that type of behavior and a smack would be in order.  If you think that is abuse so be it, I don't, abuse is looking at the women on the bus and seeing her so upset and alone. Grow up kids because one day you are going to be that age, sooner than you think.

Hot Hot real Hot!

Summer is here for sure, I live in New Jersey and right now it is 97 degrees, am I ready for this, heck no! I like winter around  Christmas time and that's it. Love summer when it is in the low 80's and spring when it feels like spring, My complete favorite time of the year is fall, I love, love love it!   It starts off all the holidays and love the colors of the leaves and foliage!  Such a beautiful time of year!!  This hot weather is not enjoyable to me unless your a fish and love to be in the water!  I use to like to tan, but when you get to my age you try to stay out of the sun so you don't age more!  The young girls of today look so pretty with the tans, the problem is that when they get to be my age, they will look even older than me!  I am so glad I got that when I was younger and took care of my skin.  We were having dinner in a restaurant and these two women walk in with such deep tans and there skin was a mass of wrinkles, they had on beautiful clothes and you could tell they had money, but there skin was just awful! They thought they looked good, but truth be told they did not, there skin was so damaged I felt bad for them to be honest!  Being the vain type I am (only being honest with you)  I want to grow old gracefully, but I don't want all the wrinkles on the face!  I know, it will all catch up in the end, but please just a while longer.  LOL!!!

Official!

Its official Rob is now a High School Graduate, and now onto the College years and much success in all his future endeavors.  I know he could do it and we will be behind him 100%.  Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaa, Like all other parents out there, we unite to make sure our children achieve there dreams, that is my purpose in life and I am sure it is most parents goal to give their child a future in life!!!  I could not be anymore prouder than I am in him than right at this moment!  On to the future Rob and may all your dreams come true!

Almost a 2012 Graduate!

Heading in 2 hours to graduation for Robbie, so proud of him! Its great being a mom!!  Short but oh so sweet! LOL

Hernia almost positive!

Went to Doctor and she is pretty sure it is a flare up and now for more test and most likely an operation, all I could say is thank God it happen now and not for my August vacation, did not get insurance for flight. I know stupid mistake what could I say!! Brains has not been a strong suit for most of my life why change it now. LOL  I hate when everything changes, not a good quality of mine for sure. I also hate the idea of having to get an operation again.  I know me though I will bounce back right away, I hate being idle to long, just not me.  I did speak with someone who said you feel much better in a few days, you just cannot and he said cannot pick up anything at all heavy. So this time I will follow orders for sure!  In pain right now as I write this, but there is no way I will miss my sons Graduation ceremony tonight, I waited for this day all my life and now here it is! Tomorrow I go for a test and Monday of next week back to Doctor, as long as no more issues come up I could take it slow!  It is what it is and there is nothing I could do about it! Think positive Fran is all I could say to myself!

Off to Doctors tonight!

After a full week and a half of having abdominal pains with not much relief in site, and managing to get through the party I planned on Sat for my son it is time for the Doctor tonight at around 6PM. Pain on right side is always there and me being the doctor I think I am has some opinions on this situation! LOL It could be one of three things no make that four things, 1) gas,  2) lapband 3) appendix 4) hernia. I know when I go there tonight it will be a waste because all they will say is you have to have test done!  I saw dread all that stuff and if the pain would have went away I would not even be going tonight, and my whole family would have killed me for sure if I did not!  Unfortunately the pain is still there and before anything happen like it bust or something I have to go big time! With the August trip around the corner, it will be hear before you know it can not take any chances of not taking care of this problem now.  So wish me luck and I will fill you in on results!!! 

Not so exciting for sure!

See I knew it, to have a blog you need pazzaz and something interesting going on in your life, for me the only interesting thing is following the future of my son!! LOL. That is why my blog is called what it is Not so excititng maybe a little!  My map was really getting green now it is only a little green boo hoo !  My blog map that is,  even Russia is loosing interest in my everyday life!  I guess I could lie and say a bunch of bull crap, but why its not me.  The point is to let you know what everyday stuff I do which is not so glamorous at all and is the real deal! I have to figure out what will hold the interest of my follow bloggers.  It for sure is not about me and my life!  LOL   I really to love being me, at least I could laugh at what I want and what I know is only a possibility! You know dreams and wishes do happen though, you can never say never!

Not good!

Fighting some kind of stomach virus, or at least it feels like that. It started on weekend and even today I feel like crap, big time!  All I keep saying is not now not now, tonight have to finish shopping for food for party on Sat. than I have to prepare it all Thursday and Friday. Lots of running around to do in between it all and feeling the way I do, is not going to be a good experience at all. This is the worst of timing ever.  I thought my stomach was getting back to feeling better but today the pains and rumbling are there and hurting like the dickens. Just have to zone it out and move along the best I could..  I have the lap band so of course the first thing my family thinks of something is wrong with it and than they proceed to lecture me. LOL My son Robbie is the worse, if he sees me throw up and that is only if I eat a tad to much, he freaks big time.  Oh well at least I know they care. But I am really not in the mood for lectures at this point!

What the future holds!

I must say I have no Idea, but I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason.  My future endeavors seem very uncertain right now.  For some unknown reason I am a little excited and a little scared right now. Of course that is what is expected after you are used to the same for all these years.  But the excitement of new and unexpected is very appealing to me. I really do need that little push to make sure I succeed with all I want to do..  No choices are in the horizon just fact that things are going to change, and so will I.

Great weekend!

It really was one of the best weekends, ever if I say so myself.  Weather was holding up and I did get loads of stuff done, which always makes me feel good!  This weekend coming is Robbie's graduation/birthday party so on wed. the cooking begins! Bake Ziti, Sausage and peppers, and my husbands famous meatballs which I can never seem to make enough of.  I wish I could have had it in a hall but he chose the California trip so had to make it in backyard. Would have loved to have everyone but just could not do it!  Yard not big enough for that so that's a bummer. Would of could of should of, my motto is it is what it is and make the best of it!  Always works for me, why change it now!!!. On June 19th is graduation day! Boy time flies. I still could remember holding him in my arms and just not believing he was mine and he was finally here! A new part of his life and our life is upon us and I cannot wait to see what is in store!

Proud mom Indeed!

I said it once and I will say it a trillion times, I am one proud mom, Robbie received his scholarship monies yesterday for college . I was so proud of him and so are the teachers who chose him for the scholarship. I found out this morning he received it because the teachers voted for him and that made me even happier. His counselor Mrs Mishir said he work hard and came a long way and deserved it!  She also said that knowing the type of parents we are that will will push him to keep it up, and last but not least she thank us for being great parents, how cool is that!  The best job in the world is to be a parent and she thanked me!  The next 4 years is going to be a challenge, but I am up for it!  What I mean by that is Robbie is the type of kid that wants it all, just like most all kids and I have to remind him that the rewards will come in time and be well worth it! Never give up is going to be a big part of my vocabulary for quite some time!

Memory of my dream!

I was reading an article a young women wrote about dreams she had and would write about. It brought back a beautiful dream I would have a lot and it always brought me back to a time, that I swear I felt I lived there.  It always started with a large house and I mean large like a mansion type.  I remember the rooms as if I lived there and even the furniture was so real, It had this gigantic room with the most beautiful furniture and a fireplace and so much more, it felt so so real, but the best part of the dream is when I wanted to hide and I would go though these secret rooms and no one could find me.  I would be reading or painting and it was such a beautiful feeling of calm and peacefulness. I would wake up in the morning and always remember that dream because it felt more real to me there than being where I was!  I had the same dream for years and I can still picture it now as if it was yesterday!! Going to sleep for me was magical!  I sometimes wonder if I really was there in another time!  There was no faces and people just me and this magical mansion in a place I truly believe I once was.

Horoscope says!

It says stay out of drama with a little more added to that, but really are you kidding me, drama is my middle name. LOL Drama follows me around like a fish in water, (I used that saying could not think of another one so fast) anyway, drama finds me all the time for some reason.  I start days of saying great day and than the drama follows almost always.  I have tried relaxation tapes something like meditation Cd's. and who come in either my husband or son and they say what are you doing, I say meditating and they just laugh and say I am nuts. People pay big money for that kind of stuff and they think I am nuts, go figure. I will lay on the bed close my eyes and listen to the waves and sounds on the Cd and than I hear mom, mom, mom, of course I am in a calm state so I do not answer, if I told him once I told him 100 times when you see me laying in bed and not answering I am not dead I am meditating (lol) and still he needs to brake my calm for me to answer him.  I love him to death but will he ever learn is the question! That is where the drama begins, and the Italian temper comes flying!  You want drama you got it!!!

Start of a new day!

Beautiful weather at least right now, feeling good about myself  is a plus of course and very excited because my son Rob will be presented tonight with his scholarship, another proud moment added to the many I have experienced with him! He will officially graduate on June 19th but next Sat. we are having his graduation/ birthday party at the same time, have no time at all to throw two separate shin digs with the Virginia and California trips coming.  Only so much time in a day as they say LOL. I have to say this is going to be a busy, busy summer and it will fly by so face it is going to make my head spin.  Fun stuff for sure guys, now the next big thing to do win the Lottery than my life will be complete!!! LOL Later my friends!

Oh my God!

It is going to be another one of those days, my stomach is turning already and nerves make me fill like I just want to throw up!  Okay, so I am exaggerating a little LOL  but it is going to be a bad day for sure! I have no Idea how to get out of this one!  God always comes through in the end.  My boss brought in Rosie girl at least that makes my day!!  Even though I cannot talk one on one with her she is a great listener for sure! Let me refresh your memory guys Rosie is a dog but a great companion in a office of men!

One of those nights!

Trying to figure what I like to do on the side that will hold my interest when it is time to call it a day with full time work!  I want to do so much but as always I start off strong than poop out! My horoscope,the sign of Aries is known for that or at least that's what I read,my thoughts hop from one thing to another and I get bored very easy.  I always say that the things I did the best and last the longest was getting my drivers license, Marriage, and having a child.. They are the 3 accomplishments I achieved in my life.  No regrets about that, but I saw want to do something but what is the question!  There has to be something out there for me!!  Ahh,  its just one of those days and night I guess when you want something more but what or how to go about it is the question!

Tuesday!

So far so good, hopefully the weather will stay a little dry for a while in the state of New Jersey, I know this is only temporary but I will take it LOL.  I started reading the book everyone is talking about, you know what its call  Fifty Shades of Grey, only on the sixth chapter of first book so I have not got to the heated stuff yet! LOL Everyone is talking about it so I thought I have to see what this is all about so I jumped on the band wagon! Friend all tell me you have to read it!! I will fill you in as I go, at least what is appropriate to say on my blog! A little embarrassed that I am telling you all this but what the heck, every other women I know can not seem to put the book down. Later all!

Great time!

Prom went off without a hitch and Robbie had a great time!  Him and his date looked great and guess what no rain for the spotlight showcase the kids get to have!  We jumped from one house to another house to take pictures than we made it in record time to get to the showcase and be there waiting when all the kids pulled up in Limos, Mercedes and what ever other nice car they could find and all of them were dress to the nines and looked great! Some of the gowns the girls wore were just absolutely beautiful! Had a great weekend with family and friends, but what is the old saying went by way to soon, for sure. Pics to follow if I could just get my son to do it for me!!  I really have to learn to put the pictures up by myself. You would really get sick of looking at me than!  LOL

Prom Pictures with us!!

At least to me it is, if you see my blog you will know my son's prom is tonight, he said to me and his dad, mom you guys have to dress up so we could take pictures. So here I am a little dressed up with shoes on that I would love to throw across a room my feet hurt so bad. He also tells his father to not wear his work boots.   Robbie in case you do not know this, we are not the ones that are going to the prom, we are spectators, and as for the pictures half shots will be okay!  Only kidding what ever he wants, he will get, this is his day and getting a little dressed up and him wanting us to all take pictures with him is so sweet!