Bad mood!

Tell me if you think I am right or wrong or if you do not want to voice your opinion, that's find by me too, as long as I could vent.  I went outside to do morning chores in back yard.  For a month and a half there is this burner with a propane tank attach to it where I keep the dogs. It was used to boil a big pot of water for the trays you  hold food to keep it warm , it was used when we had my sons birthday/graduation party in early June. I think I have ask my husband for the last month to get it out of there and he always says he will, at least a good 50 times.  Well today I did not ask any more I insisted and lost my patience to the point we had this argument and he said he is not doing it at all!  So okay act like a baby, I call my brother-in-law to come over tonight and disconnect it and put in garage for me! I'm right I do not care what anyone thinks, there is no reason at all something that should have been done the next day is still there so long after!  What really kills me is we did not need it in the first place, for years we always just boiled water on stove and put it in the warmer trays fast, easy and done with no drama whats so ever! Acting like a big baby really give me a break already will ya! Get it done whats so hard about that! Do I really need to get someone to do this when he should, I don't think so!

Won!

Got excited right, LOL won only $17.00 on the lottery. Hey maybe my luck is starting to change, really want that house in Rumson!  You know something, I never stop dreaming until its over and by that I mean pretty much dead!  You know the old saying its not over till its over, my thoughts exactly!  I will keep the positive attitude till I get what I want and what I want is that house!  Time for me to start the meditation cds and think positive thoughts.  What a life changing think that would be to move to a place like that, don't you think!  It can happen, It can happen, It can happen! No It will happen!

A great weekend!

I had the best weekend of just fun and relaxation and absolutely no drama to be seen!  My son, husband and myself went for a nice Saturday late afternoon ride to Rumson and Fair Haven and Red Bank area and just cruised around and looked at beautiful houses and enjoy the Navasink river view it was so nice.  On Sunday we told my sister what we did and she was like why did'nt you tell us we would have went. I made a nice Sunday dinner with Ravoli and Chicken Catitorie, we ate cleaned up and left with with them to go do the same thing, it was just as much fun the second time around! All in all I would take a weekend like that a thousand times over!  Loved it! 

My friend Rosie girl!

What a great way to get greeted on a Friday morning at the work place!  Rosie was there to welcome me with open arms (or should I say paws lol) anyway when I came to work my boss left Rosie there knowing of course I was coming in while he and the guys went to do a job! So right now Rosie and I are just chilling the day away, while I work she sleeps.  What a great dog life she has. lucky her!  All in all it is a pleasure to be with Rosie and I will take her greeting anytime over a humans in a heart beat! When they say that your dog is your best friend, well she might not be my dog but she is a best friend, and a pleasure to be around!

Love it!

Hi guys, really busy at the workplace, I love it when I am busy and moving!  I am working with my co-worker sort of like a co-pilot today you might say and we are being pretty productive or at least trying to be!  Lunch break right now so I decided to give you all a heads-up on what I am doing! Do you really care (oh well I am telling you anyway) I did not want you to think I fell off the face of the earth!   Going with son after work to his college to make sure his scholarship monies were paid and than I need to pay the difference!!  He is having a ruff time with his college website, he needs to be able to get on it and it will not go though so we need to get that problem fixed also. He needs to find out what books the professors want for each subject for the first semester!  My son is a great kid, but a little bit of a procrastinator and always waits for the last minute, me on the other hand is a far cry from that!  I have everything ready way before hand, to me it makes for a better day! Needless to say when he waits I have to go running around with him to make sure all gets done, that is why I am on him now. Okay all back to work I go, later alligator (how Corney am I) LOL

Work day almost over!

My son calls me up like a manic and says mom Brie pooped all in her cage, so me the calm mom (LOL) says okay, take the tray out and hose it down and let it dry, he say I threw it at the bottom of the steps outside, I proceeded to say did you hose it down he says I am not touching that. Well the calm mom was not calm anymore and I flip the heck out!!  Oh my God everyone loves the dogs but no one wants to clean the mess that the dogs could possibly make and do make!!  Now when I go home I have to make  sure Brie is poop free and to try to get dried out poop off the tray to the bottom of the cage.  All I could say is Rob (my son) had better be glad he will be at work before I get there! The crazy person that I am hates when I come home after a long day at work to a mess!  When I walk out my door in the morning and look back all is perfect and neat and in its place, all I ask is to come home to the same thing or at least close to it!  Okay I vented and thanks for listening, I feel better already!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Not!

How happy am I?

I think to happy, why I am happy don't have a clue, but I will take it! Maybe the weather, or knowing vacation is right around the corner , something new and different to see and do! What ever it is I'll take it , manic episode has passed for now LOL. I didn't even know I was manic, (only kidding) but I must be with the mood swings going UP and going DOWN.  Can not blame change of life,  been there done that,(and that was not even close to what I have been going through recently) so I will sit here and try to figure what is going on in this little pee brain head of mine.  Just call me Dr. Fran, I could fix problems in the drop of a hat!  See guys I told you I was in a good mood!  Oh well, I am going to enjoy it while I can and the brain waves are still communicating the good vibes!  Wow, I really am nuts LOL later folks! May the good spirits be with you. Stop Fran, Stop enough already!

Just read and article!

Christian Bale was never my favorite actor, I have watch a few of his movies and never got into the parts he played so to me he was just another actor. Now of course I have a very different opinion of him and it has nothing to do with his acting at all,  it is his compassion and caring and the complete I don't care if I am a celebrity attitude that makes me respect this man more than anything! He took it upon himself to go to Colorado and show how much he cared for what happened there!  Was it his fault, of course not, did he have to go not at all, did he choose to go yes he did!  We as just everyday normal people always seem to forget that Celebrities are people too. They are not above caring about what is going on in the world around them!  Christian Bale showed us that when he chose to go to Colorado and showed just how much he truly cared!

The whether outside is delightful!

Love the whether today in New Jersey, what a beautiful day, and I am loving it, I read my horoscope and it is confusing me a little, (what else is new) it reads it may seem to you that it will be difficult for you to predict where you'll be next month, only because your needs are so rapidly changing, declining and developing anew. Now I am confused, I know I will be the same place I always am , my needs change each and every day, that's so true but for sure nothing is developing much in the anew dept.  which would be great if it was!  Now more confused than when I first started the day! LOL  Why can't the horoscope predict you will hit the lottery today and live in a luxury hi-rise on the water!  Go Figure, you gotta love it! 

To Russia with Love!

To my friends in Russia thanks for the follow, you have been great even though, my jibber jabber is constant!  I love that you enjoy reading my blog and find it entertaining!  My friends in the US of A thank you also for the follows and a little bit of Germany, China, you are all making my Blog just skyrocket to the top!  Who would have thought that this Italian girl from NJ would even interest people, but I am so glad I do and you are sticking with me through it all! 

Did I ever tell you!

I breed Shih Tzu, I think I did, but just chalk it up to another senille moment, I just thought about it right at this moment, a face book friend which we sold a puppy to from our first litter has been posting pictures of him his name is teddy and he his such a cutie,  I believe he has to be about 3 years old by now.  But Shih Tzu's are such great lab dogs and the good thing is no shading. I personally have 2 girl and 2 boys and 1 rat terrier all great dogs. Bella my girl dog just had a litter on march 26 now Brie my other girl will be mated with Benji our male this month beginning of Aug. just waiting for you know what and than 10 days from that point is the time.  After we are done mating them then our breeding days are over. Just 5 times each girl.  Bella will be going on 4th time in 6month and Brie this will be her first this August.  We had no intention of getting another on but we kept 1 from her second litter which gave us 5 dogs. I know I am nuts, but as long as my house is spotless and does not smell of dog all is good! You have to keep them all groomed and clean it makes for a better day!  Believe me I have this down pat! LOL

My Aunt!

I am sitting here and eating chocolate pudding, and out of the clear I think to myself I have to call my Aunt!  You know something, I said to myself after my other aunt passed last year I was going to make a point of calling my other Aunt more often, I need to keep that promise. I love this person and when things are not in my life any longer, I am tired of saying I should have, I regret that and all the what if  I would have crap.  So later I promise to me, I will call my dear Aunt just to say hello to her!  This I promise so help me God!

So far so good!

Having a great day, no drama no words being exchange all quiet on the western front, ( LOL I always wanted to say that) no really I have to say I am so enjoying today, its days like this with no tension and no stress, that makes me love my job so much.  I could work forever on days like this and do not mind a bit!  I just think stress kills and I really want a long life to enjoy all those I love!  Of course we all feel that way, but most of  us have options and you just have to chose what option is best for you!  Going to get a bite to eat will be back later to let you know if I am still in that frame of mind mode!!!  I sure hope so!!!!!!!!!!!

Still waiting!

Still waiting on whether Rob has part they said he will know at end of month, so still hoping.  The only thing is he told me he gets killed in the end!  Not good, not good at all!  I have to watch my son get killed that will be hard for me. But it is acting and that's what it is all about! Next Saturday on August 3, is his modeling show, the designers wanted his measurements and he is really excited about it!  Already purchases my tickets for show!  How weird will it be to see my son on the walkway!  Can not wait!!!!   Managers, talent agencies and agents will be there from New York.  Great way to show case yourself! So now we just wait to see if anything happens, we all it is not easy in the world of movie land and the fashion Industry!

Morning guys!

I wrote this whole blog and do you believe I deleted it so I guess I will just make it short and kinda of sweet, Good morning to you all,  Off to work in about 15min. and in a good mood to face the day!  I saw want to stay that way and my goal is to, come hell or high water! LOL  Wish me luck, counting the days to the weekend which the older I get the more I love!  That makes sense right the older you get the more relax time you want!  So not me and I really do love to keep myself busy, but the big question is busy at what! I am pretty sure I will find my calling. Life has always come around full circle and things always work themselves out !  Could it be the 3 Guardian angels on my shoulders looking out for me! I believe so!

Getting a great following!

How do I say thanks to you all, You have all been following what is happening with me, even though nothing great really is going on!  Remember that speech, years ago when Sally Field won an Oscar or was it an Emmy (oh well not sure) anyway she said in her speech you like me you really really like me, that is how you are all making me feel that you like me and all I could say is thank you so much.  On my blog I look at my stats and my map is getting green and staying green, so excited about it you have no Idea, oh yea you do,  you have to know me by now that being Italian and having this Italian mouth, my life is pretty much an open book!  Believe me when I tell you it does not take much for me to just tell people my life story!  I don't know if I ever told you all about my lap band I had done about 3 years ago!  When we all go out to eat, no matter where I go I start to explain that I have a lab band and everyone I am with starts laughing because I do it all. I am really bad when it comes to going out to eat  I always explain why I want a kids plate not an adults and the real funny part of it is, that the waitress or waiter always 10 times out of 1 knows someone who had it done! There mother, grandmother, sister, boyfriend the list goes on and on.  Now my family just goes with the flow and they always know the next sentence that will come out of my mouth after ordering my meal is always the same LOL  to funny! I try to change, but I am me and can not be anyone else other than me.  Till this day I will see someone from my past and they always say to me Fran you never change, I used to think to myself is  that good or bad, you know what I decided its good, I like being me, just me! 

Hi my friends!

I had an enjoyable Sunday , I went to my nephews Birthday party, they had  in a park and it was a beautiful day, he turned 2 years old. You had to see his face when he got this motorized Escalade Cadillac vehicle it was priceless! His grandparents bought it for him (my sister and brother-in-law) they have been telling him you are getting your car on your birthday, he ran so fast when he seen it, it was just so adorable and that face of his spoke volumes.  What else could I say than that.  Nice people nice day and nice weather make for an awsome and wonderful day! I hope you all had a great weekend or what ever time zone your soon to be weekend!  I love when things just go so right with no drama at all and that was the kinda of day I had! Perfect just perfect!

Saturday!

Hi all, I had some free time husband went to groomer to pick-up dogs , my son Rob is working to 6:00 and as for me the bake ziti for tomorrows party is all done. So you all know the next stop , here, all I have been listening to the names of the people who were killed and are injured and I started feeling very depressed and guilty that my life is moving along while others are hurting so much! I know all of this is not in our control, but I still can not stop from thinking about all the pain they are feeling, as I am sure all of you feel the same and I am not alone.. Such an unreal feeling still and only time, a very long time will make it feel better!  Life for me will be the same , but for all the people with love ones gone, they will never be the same!  I don't understand and I know I will never understand what makes people do what they do!   Are they not human beings like me and you or a spawn of the devil!   What makes them change into what they have become, what made their mind snap to get them to take human life., I have problems and dreams and stress and worries, so does that mean I or any of us could just loose it and do something so horrendous as what that killer did?  I wonder and wonder and it scares me!

I feel!

I feel, sick to my stomach right now, I cannot shake the sadness I feel for all the victims in Colorado and for all their families and friends. Words cannot even explain the pain they all must be in.  On a beautiful summer night you leave your home, whole families or just  young peoplewith friends ready to see a movie they were so excited to go see and this is what happens!  How and why did it happen, what made this person decide to just go and kill loads of Innocent people with the intent to kill.  I can not wrap my mine around the whole situation and I am quite sure neither could you!  I wish I could understand the reason these things happen and why does the children of today have to feel so unsafe at every single thing they do!

Countdown!

To the weekend, Yea, dreary outside today, but so what at least I have 2 days of my home and maybe not tranquility, but at least I will be home!  Will be having a busy weekend, and time will fly and we all know that (sucks) hate that word but is seem appropriate for the way I feel about the situation!  Monday will be here before you know it and back to the old grind!  Five more weeks to California and so looking forward to be just getting away and enjoy the family vacation !  Family is always there for you unconditionally and I love that!  My family taught me well that first and foremost family is always number one! Have a great weekend if I don't have a chance to get back to you all! 

What a senseless act of violence

I really cannot believe you can not even go to a movie and feel safe any more!  Last night my son went to the midnight showing also but we live in New Jersey. Very seldom does he go but his friend has been down from Virginia and he wanted to go!  Now I know why I very seldom never let him go to the midnight movies but he is now 19yrs old and I really have no control over saying to him Rob you cannot go to the midnight movie.  Now as I write this I wonder how many parents would have loved to tell their child, no you can not go the the movies this late!  Over protective, there really is no such thing as that anymore, you are just trying to keep them safe, so they can have a long and healthy life!  God bless all who were killed and hurt in the shooting and may the killer pay for what he did!  A long long life in prison and may he rot in hell there!  Death for him is way to easy!

Triond has given me a voice!

Triond , when I was searching the web and came upon you, I have to say it was one of the best things to happen to me, you are the voice that gave me sanity when all feelings were kept inside and with no place to go!  I have said it numerous time and I will keep saying it.  For me in all honesty it is not about the money it is about having a place to put my thoughts in writing and getting feedback from so many around the world..  Just the comments are enough for me to just keep writing and knowing that people like what I have to say and enjoy it!  My articles are not, again like I have said so many times, topics that are interesting to most people.  It is mostly talk of me, which for me is great therapy and is very enjoyable for the soul!  So once again thanks Triond and its a pleasure to be in contact with loads of great people!

There is always a light at the end!

The end meaning tunnel, you know the saying there is always a light at the end of a tunnel, outta of the blue that thought just came to me and than the typing begins.  I just wanted to let people know that somehow, someway things always seem to turn out okay!  Perfect life, I by far do not have, but when I worry about things, money, bills, everyday drama, things always seem to turn out okay!  You could call it luck, or what ever you want but for some reason it works out!  Things come together and it works itself into being okay.  I just had that thought and I wanted you guys to know about it!  Who knows maybe you are having a bad day like I do numerous amounts of times. I little extra encouragement always helps with positive thoughts! Right, right!

What to write about!

Generally I just write whatever pops out of this brain of mine, and right now not much is happening or interesting enough to even bother talking about!.  I hate that, because I am in the mood to write, but my brain is not. Does that make sense or am I talking stupid again!  I was reading some topics I could talk about but not in the mood for that!  When I write, I very seldom write about the ways of the world!  I like to write more about my world, my inner circle, even if it is not as big and as exciting as most others is!  Its mine, all mine and no one can take it away from me.  I mean no one!  LOL  See ya later, maybe something good will happen.  Boy do I feel bi-polar right now!  Yesterday supper bad mood and today, the world is my oyster!

This story is so touching and so true!

Cranky Old Man.....
What do you see nurses? . . .. . .What do you see?
What are you thinking .. . when you're looking at me?
A cranky old man, . . . . . .not very wise,
Uncertain of habit .. . . . . . . .. with faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food .. . ... . . and makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . .'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice . . .the things that you do.
And forever is losing . . . . . .. . . A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not . . . ... lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding . . . .The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking?. .Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse .you're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am . . . . .. As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, .. . . . as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten . .with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters .. . . .. . who love one another
A young boy of Sixteen . . . .. with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now . . .. . . a lover he'll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty . . . ..my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows .. .. .that I promised to keep.
At Twenty-Five, now . . . . .I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . .. . . . . My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other . . .. With ties that should last.
At Forty, my young sons .. .have grown and are gone,
But my woman is beside me . . to see I don't mourn.
At Fifty, once more, .. ...Babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . . . . My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me . . . . My wife is now dead.
I look at the future ... . . . . I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing .. . . young of their own.
And I think of the years . . . And the love that I've known.
I'm now an old man . . . . . . .. and nature is cruel.
It's jest to make old age . . . . . . . look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles .. .. . grace and vigour, depart.
There is now a stone . . . where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . A young man still dwells,
And now and again . . . . . my battered heart swells
I remember the joys . . . . .. . I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . . . . . life over again.
I think of the years, all too few . . .. gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people .. . . . .. . . open and see.
Not a cranky old man .
Look closer . . . . see .. .. . .. .... . ME

Hi to all , I was on face book and saw this write up , for those of you who have not seen it ,it is one of the most beautiful poems I ever read!  It was written by a older gentleman in the Geriatric ward of a nursing home in a small Australian country town before his death!  What a beautiful legacy to have left us all, after all we too will get old one day!  Rest in peace dear sir whom ever you are and I thank you from the bottom of my heart  for reminding us that we all get older one day!

I will not look back!

When it is time to start the new journey of my life, I will move forward and not look back!  I have finally realize the past is the past and the future is all up to you!  I will breath the fresh air and smell the flowers and enjoy the rest of my journey to the fullest!  Leave the stress that has consumed me will be a pleasure and a joy!  New faces, new goals and a new a horizon will be awaiting me and is mine for the taking and I will do just that!  This is a promise to myself so help me God!  I say this to myself each and every day it is my prayer and it will happen!

Longest week!

I have to say this is the longest week ever!  I feel like I have been through the mill, (when to be honest I haven't, not buy a long shot) but the stress and heat is not working well in my favor!  I just want it to be over already and the weekend be here!  The weather is suppose to get a tad better, thank you lord!  Surprise, other than what I talked about, today is a day I don't have much to say!  Maybe I just am not in the mood to talk or even think a lot!  Who knows, I am in a bad mood and can not seem to snap out of it!  Home, I want my home, now right now! Later all, if anything happens that is good I will be back if not, see ya tomorrow!

Some people just get me?

I swear I am getting way to old for drama and associating myself with not nice people.  I can not wait till I am starting a new road in my life without the drama and all the crap I deal with because I have to! Like I say life is way to short to deal with things that you do not need to deal with. I know this blog is not making much sense to most, its a read between the lines post and nothing more could be said, but I know what it means and I am the most important person right now.  Its all about me!  How I feel and how other people make ME feel!  So tired of it really!  Do people out there really like to make people feel like they are not worth much, I would have to say the answer is yes there is! I know some!

Out of the Clear!

Hey everyone, a new day has begun and I am so ready for it!  Still waiting on whether my son got the part for the movie. He has his fingers cross and I think what ever other part of his body that could be crossed is LOL. Yesterday he brought up his friend again who just got killed in a car crash, it has made an impact on him and he still cannot believe that she is gone!  So hard to handle for a young person. When he brings things up to me you know he needs to talk about it, kids at his age really sometimes do not want discuss much with their parents hardly ever!  That's is fine by me, he can talk to me anytime he wants that's what moms are for.  Gotta go for now, you all know I will be back!

I suprise myself!

I really do, I cannot believe I have so much nonsensical things to say. My thoughts and feeling just start coming out of me when writing. I just think to myself wow Fran if only you liked school and did not have ADD (which now I know in later years was probably what I had) you could have really have been somebody. I know I am somebody, I am me but just think if I really learned, I mean really learned how to use the big words and the right paragraphs and how to make a story, boy what would I be able to write down on paper with this crazy mind of mine if only I would have learned like I should have, I could write and express myself the right way!  Now of course, I am a big stickler on telling the young  to make sure you get a good education and learn. I wish I was told that enough times instead of staring out the class room window! I wish I would have just tried harder and just focused more, but it was not meant to be. I know another sad story, not really, you want to know why because I am right now doing what I always wanted to do and that is write what is in my head and let everyone know what I am feeling, no Pulitzer prize here I know but I am enjoying every minute of what I am capable of doing and that is letting my feelings out to all!  Okay done for now until tomorrow and guess what 20min. to go and I am done!

Who needs a sauna!

Just go to New Jersey and its yours for the taken and right now with this heat wave, so is a lot of other states.  I had to go to bank for work and I went outside and the heat just was like pow right in the face! I like hot weather but this is to hot and since I do not have Raquel Welshes body, clothes are a must. LOL To much information, I know whats a girl (women) to do but just be honest and come out with it!  The T-shirt look is good, but a bathing suit top would be a whole lot better!  Fran, just keep dreaming, maybe in another life, if you do not come back as a dog, you will have the perfect body to go along with a perfect face, but not this time around!  AHHH to dream, okay end of that issue and time to move on to next, yes one more hour to go and I am outta of here!  I don't know about you but, when the end of the day comes it such a great feeling to be going home!  I feel that way on a Friday, knowing that for 2 days I can do what ever I want to do without being told to do this or to do that!  I am in control and I love it! But you know what the funny part is that when Sunday comes along and you know the next day is work, I am not upset at all that I have to go!  Years ago when I was a kid I so hated Mondays, I really felt horrible on Sunday nights and I made myself miserable.  I knew I had school the next day, I hated school. I now came to the conclusion that I really do not mine my job at all, but I really do need the 2 days to recuperate and than I am ready for the daily grind of the treaded Monday!

What could have been!

Tension was ruff today, but all is well on the western front (so to speak) all in all it is turning out to be a nice day and that makes me happy!  Things happen and personalities clash but everything always turns out good, in the long run!  Thank God for that!  Two more hours than home and relaxation!   With all the things happening around me it makes me glad that all I love is safe and sound!  Hearing about my sons friend really gets me thinking on how a life can get snuff out in a blink of an eye.  I really try not to be that type of person who walks around with the word morbid thoughts on my face, but being sad for others always makes my mine go in a hundred different directions and makes me always remember life is so short!  I hate that, everyone should live forever and a day! But God had other plans so new batches of us get made each and every day and the old and sometimes young have to go, go figure right, the way of the world..  To change the subject, LOL did I say things were running smoothly well guess what they went back into tension mode again!!  I just want calm!

Reality hits again!

Each and every day is a blessing for all of us, reality has hit again with the loss of my son Robbie's friend Cynthia, she was killed in a car accident yesterday and it hit Rob hard!  He said mom, she just moved to South Carolina from the next town over and she loved it so much!  She was 18 yrs old and her life was cut down so short!  She was driving her car and a man who had a heart attach crashed directly into the driver side of her car killing her instantly it turned out to be a 6 car collision and she was the only one that died!  She had her seat belt on and followed all the rules and still she was in harms way! Life is not fair for sure and you have to wonder why these things happen, and who is the chosen few that get picked at such a young age and for no apparent reason!  I hope that God has a reason for taken her so soon and she has a mission to come back and look over all those that love her so much!  I know that Robbie is trying to understand the reasons but it is very hard for him to grasp the finality of it all even at the age of 19 years old!  Kids always believe they will live for ever because they are young!  As we all well know not always!

I swear I am not going to say one of those days!

Okay, here it goes, I am not saying it but I want you to  know I am feeling it, big time!  What is causing me to feel this way, not going to say it, what I like to be doing right now, not going to say it. What I like to do to one certain person, not going to say it! Don't keep asking me, cause I am not going to say it!  Just remember I am thinking it, enough said! Right, Right! Now you know everything! LOL   Especially if you know me, and I assume you do if you have read my blogs, you all give me sanity and that's all that matters!

Now the wait!

Hi Guys, I am happy (Rob my son) you know him the kid I talk about non-stop, he had an audition today for the lead roll in an Independent film, he said it looks good but of course we all know time will tell. He should know in about 2 weeks.  I am waiting to see if his manager has gotten any feedback. I will let you all know if anything comes out of it!  He said that Tyler Perry is interested in film which is a good thing and that there is going to be a red carpet event premiere for film so we are excited about that!. Also August 5th he will be modeling designer clothes in fashion show at Hilton Hotel, cannot wait for that!.. All good experiences for a young person, even if nothing comes out of it, it was still worth it! Than off to California and the vacation that is much needed on August 17th, month of August is looking good with Gods help of course!

So excited!

I just got involved in on a great Idea that will really help stay at home moms with businesses such as Avon,  Scentsy, Paparzzi Jewlery, Partylite, Tastefully Simple, Pampered Chef, Velata and so on! It is on Face book and it is called Business Circle Swap Group. The leader is Sherri Ann Harris and the Idea is a way to get whatever type of Business consultant you are for any business with a web page to get it out there and get sales!  We have groups of 12 the first group is full and they are starting a second group so come on board and watch your business bloom right in front of your eyes!  In a random drawing I was picked for the first hostess and the first consultant is for Perfectly Posh. What ever sales Perfectly posh gets myself as the hostess gets a percentage of what they over. Sales for Perfectly Posh start in Aug till the end.  Than random.com picks a new hostess and consultant for the next month and so on and so on.  Take a look and contact Sheri and get all the info you will want and need!  Good like and happy shopping guys, it truly will be a great way to connect with new people and draw new business to your company! I for one am very excited with this new venture and so glad I have join the group! Take a look and see for yourself  Business Circle Swap Group on Face book!

Rosie and me!

Only two of us in office for at least 3 hours now, Rosie as you all must know by now is a dog, one of a kind and pretty much one of the best behave dogs ever!!!!!  That's saying a lot because I have 5 of my own and although they are well behaved, Rosie is like no other, a personality so sweet it is surreal. I really cannot say enough about this animal, if that is what you want to call her. She is such a calm dog , I wish I could be that calm.  I might have to talk dog talk to her and find out her secret for sure! I am sure she is a good listener and she will not talk back at all.  Rosie and I connect more in the office than I do with the people here. She does not judge me or yell at me and she does not think she is better than me!  What else can a working girl ask for! True friends forever, Rosie girl!

It's not over till its over!

Hi to all, I have to tell you, I read an article today that made my day, It is about this women Etta Britt at 55yrs old, who just signed a recording contract. Now we all know that the music industry is a big thing for the young, you start out young and get old in front of the public.  Very seldom do you start out old!  It confirms my feelings of never giving up no matter the age you are and that favorite quote of mine its not over till its over!  I mean over, 10 ft under the ground with flowers growing, over!!!  Live your life to the fullest and enjoy each and everyday of it!  Young is a state of mine not body!!!! If you want something go out and get it, do it, be it!  No late bloomers here, just think its the time and I am ready world, are you ready for me kinda of thing..  Love to all and remember, your just beginning!

Day of worry!

Okay, here it goes,  sounds simple but its not, drum roll please, my son his heading to shore with his friend and now begins a day of worry!.  I know come on the shore, Fran really let the kid grow up!  I have made a pledge to myself not to make my first call till late afternoon, and come hell or high water I am going to stick to that!  Do you want to know what is going on in this mind of mine, NO, well your going to hear it anyway.  First I think of sharks, and than riptides and whatever else pops into this brain of mine.  I have loads of friends and family that would crucified me right now! Let the kid grow up Let the kid grow up!  Okay you guys are all right, I am going to let him grow up!  But I will be praying to God at the top of my lungs watch over him please.  That's okay right? LOL  Later my friends!  You are all such good listeners

Okay!!!!!!!!!!

My son thinks I am his bank, saves his money and spends mine.  The good thing is he does not really ask for much.  I am saving still for vacation come August so it is just annoying me that I can not save as much as I like.  But as always I will get over it I always do!  He also chipped in for it so what else could I do.  A few dollars here and a there is no big deal, but it adds up and as his bank account gets bigger ours gets smaller!  LOL  All part of being a parent, I guess but oh how I would love to see my funds get bigger!  Dream Fran, just keep dreaming.  He just stop by and said mom I need to get chop meat  for some dish he wants to make. I said Robbie there is some in freezer why didn't you defrost it this morning, he says mom that's okay I could buy it not frozen.  DA, why do I need to spend the money when I have it already!!  Kids just do not get it!!  I hope I live to see him when he gets older and sees what I mean so I could tell him I told you so!

Busy day!

Now that is the way I want to be, busy is money and money makes for a good day, with no stress and no issues. Well some but it always feel like a weight is lifted off my shoulders and I get to feeling like me again and not some walking mush brain!  I am sure you all know what I mean, been there and done that feeling! I cannot be the only one feeling these feelings especially with the economy being the way it is and everyone being desperate as all heck (hell). I wait like everyone else and wait and wait for the world to be the way it was and they say things will get better so I wait and wait!  Are we on the same planet, I think not!  LOL  They must be from outta of this world or not seeing what is happening to everyone.   Oh, I forgot the politicians live there with them, who is them. Them is them, I have not a clue and neither does anyone once else, obviously.

Heart is aching!

Hi everyone, today is a very sad day for me, I have learned you do not have to know someone personally for your heart to ache, as mine is.  In the last 3 days there have been 3 deaths in my town and neighboring towns, senseless deaths of two young people and a family monarch. Jose (17 years old) a young man from my town was stab coming from a party, my son knew him and said he was a funny kid, always with a smile, there were some gang members outside as he was leaving a party they had a few words and he was stabbed, he died from his wounds, his future was so brite, up and coming future football star for Rahway High School, and who knows what else life would have offered him! In Linden, Amber was walking home with a friend from Dunkin Doughnuts and was approached by a man who tried to rob her, she was shot and died ( 18 yrs old) Captain of her cheer leading squad and recent HS graduate, and her dreams of being a future police officer gone. As a parent I cannot even imagine what the families are going threw, my heart breaks for them all. In another town of Clark a 73 year old women was found on her couch with her throat slashed, her son could not get a hold of her when he went to the home she was still in her nightgown on the couch with her throat slashed. I have to wonder what is this world coming to.  You can not go to parties or walk the streets and your not even safe in your own home! I have lived in Rahway for 20 years I was raised in Linden and I have family in Clark, all nice towns! As a parent I have watch and protected my child to the best of my ability, as I am sure so have others.  You think okay they will be okay, but there not!  My son was extremely upset to here that Jose was killed. I tell him even at his age which is 19yrs old that is why I call to make sure he is okay!  You never know, you just never know, that they could walk out that door and it could be the last time! It sound horrible doesn't it I know but its that true.  There are no plastic bubbles you could hide yourself in, you are in the hands of the world! Enjoy each other every day to the fullest, be happy and not afraid, we are all handed a deck of cards and we have to believe even with what happen to these fine people, that there is good in this world or we will not survive. Rest in peace to you all,  no one could ever hurt you again!

Postman!(where are you)

Hi all, I am at the job just waiting for the postman to arrive, yesterday he came when we were closed and today it is looking like the same thing. I sure hope not, I could feel me getting antsy already and so annoyed!.  What happen to the days when mail would get to you come rain or shine and so on!  The world has changed so much since I was a kid!  Nothing is the same even the mail!  So it will be back to calling them and finding out whats up again!  Businesses need mail to survive people and we need ours!
Stress from mail what a joke, I really do need a vacation, not because I work hard just to be able to cope with all the crap you have to deal with just to get by!  Wow when did I become such a winer (I have to stop this now) I am sounding like a crabby old women and really I am far from that, I promise you! LOL

What a morning!

Hi to all again and today is, I hope going to start off good!  Right now so far so good!  Feel a little better and no edginess to be seen yet! LOL  I plan on keeping it that way if it kills me!  My boss brought in his dog Rosie, and that is a good thing, she will keep my personality on track, do not want to scare her with the other me!  Last night turn out to be relaxing for me, family went to an outdoor oldies show in the next town and I stood home and just relaxed and watch the boob tube (my nickname for TV). Well not really I usually say TV but just felt like writing it down!  Yes Fran you are an Idiot, what else could I write, my life is not that exciting, if I traveled around the world than I would have a lot to say and see.
Now I just need these phones to ring and that will make my day!!! That's all for now will fill you in later with my not so exciting life, oh and feel free just to skip over my blog completely, pretty boring for sure!

Disapearing!

Hey everyone, thank God, I am getting back to my old self,  edginess is going away, like I said before, does not happen often but when it does, get out of my way!  End of the day drawing near and still no mailman at job, which is pissing me off.  What, they don't realize this is a business and we need our mail.  This happens every summer because people are on vacation and they cut so many they basically screwed themselves with not enough help!  Go figure!  I hope all had a better day than I did (at least mood wise). My goal for tomorrow is to wake up (I hope God willing) and start the day off with a bang and some good news.  Enjoy your evening or day depending on where you live in this great big beautiful world of ours!

Feeling edgy!

And I do not mean that in a good way, I am antsy and edgy, I feel like if you just say the wrong thing to me, watch out!. If you ask me why, I have no answer, generally I wake up with a smile on my face and feel good mood most often.  For some reason today I just can not seem to get my act together at all!  All I know is it started off as me not feeling my best and than stress from (not going to mention why so sorry some things just have to remain personal) and boredom and than the edginess set in and now I am in rear form!  I really do hate the way I am feeling right now, just so not me and pardon the language this sucks!
Need for this day to end and a new one begin pronto for sure!  Hopefully when I blog tomorrow all will be good and I will be back to my old self again which is 100% better than this!

Quite day!

So quite today, makes for a very long day!, I work best when everything is moving and busy!  Slow quite days are just a drag and so not exciting!.  Busy busy makes for a better day!  Not all people, I think like that but I love it!.  Being bored to death is not my thing at all!.  Last week was bad, I felt like everyone fell off the face of the earth, that's how quite that was.  I was so happy to start this week, and now it still feels like last week! Holiday is over people, time to go to work and get this economy going!!  Chop chop!!  Only kidding, a lot of people are on vacation also and its the way of the world!  I always keep a positive attitude, that all will be well, but sometimes it just seems so hard to do! Time will tell I guess and you just have to go with the flow!! Oh and a lot of praying too!

A nice visit!

I am so happy, my hubby and son went to visit Brian, not sure all know but he was very hurt in a motorcycle accident about 5 to 6 months ago, and thank the lord he pulled through and on his way to a full recovery!  I have to believe in miracles because he is one! They were passing his home and saw him in his backyard so they stop in!  He is improving each and every day which is such a blessing from God!  Rob my son said he wants to go visit him more which is great!  He said mom when football season comes I will go and bring Brian a nice sub and we could hang out and watch a football game.  Very proud of him to know, that family is an important part of life and he gets it!  You have to wonder why things happen in life and how easy it can change from one minute to the next!  Cherish the moments with love ones always!

Horoscope update!

I'm an Aries, and it reads don't be self-conscious go with the adventure! What adventure, it must mean other Aries because as of now my life is pretty much boring!   I am a very self-conscious person, that's true but if an adventure was coming, I would see it right!  I'm going to California in August, that could be it, but that is a vacation.  An adventure to me would be a complete life style change with loads of options to consider. I want a change, but you have to go out and get it, it just does not fall into your lap! My biggest down fall is not going though with what I start out to do!  That is a change I really need to make and soon!

July 4Th

Job is so slow, I like 3 day weekend holidays not in the center of the week!.  Even though it is the center of week you would think the world is coming to an end.  It might as well be a weekend holiday because it sure feels like it!  I figure if it is slow now it will be slow the rest of week! What I am saying is this is ruff when not busy at work ,the day drags on forever!.  Okay Snap out of it Fran, so much else going on it seem so trivial to be complaining about being bored.,  I went to Doctor and still no results, getting test on Friday and than I will know something more, probably  find out everything I already know LOL.  Whatever it is operation will have to wait till Sept. Happy 4th to all and enjoy!

Wrong Day!

Made for a wasted ride for Rob's audition, it was not today but for July 16. So as of now we wait again! I was so excited to see the outcome.  Well at least he could practice and practice to get the part down pat. Now onto me and the Doctor and whatever he recommends for me! I really hate all this Doctor stuff, but I learned, that when a problem with your body starts you have to take action for it right away and do not wait!
I had a lot of people I love make some wrong decisions and I have lost them. They always say you learn from others mistake, which I am not happy at all about and It is not worth the loss of ones life to learn by example.  All I really could say is when you know and feel something is not right head straight to Doctors and forget the fact that it is a pain in the butt. It could save you life.

On his way!

My son's on his way to the audition, hope all go's well and they like him. That would be such a good start for him and get his face out there.  He practice all night long for the part.  He really did good, but of course we are his parents so time will tell!  Had a relaxing weekend and enjoyed myself but still have the stomach issues to deal with so going to Doctor at 4:00pm today.  I hate specialist never could get an appointment after working hours. Why is that?  They make it so difficult for us! Ways of the world, what could you do!  So I will fill you in on outcome as soon as it comes in!!  If you care! LOL