Aries Update: 12/31/12

It reads and I quote: If you feel restricted and can pin it on a certain reason or person, consider yourself lucky. Most people don't realize how they are being limited. This fits me to a tee, I do feel that I just want to spread my wings and fly, and what I am doing in my life is getting old and I want to do other things, knowing the reasons does not mean that you could change your whole life overnight though! I know the reasons that is for sure, but what are my capabilities of doing what I want to do is the questions I need to address first and foremost in my life! Restless, yes that I know, what I need to do about it is the problem I need to solve.

Alfonso's Meatballs!!!

Alfonso's Homestyle Italian meatballs!

Alfonso's meatballs will be sold at Big Al's deli (south wood ave. Linden) beginning Jan, 15th and remember Big Al's has the best subs in town.

Merry Christmas!

Well guys, it is here, I just love this time of year, some humbugs ask me why and I say because it is the only time of the year when people are united and full of love and kindness for each other! If everyday could be like Christmas time the world would be a better place! I hope all your dreams and wishes come true and you all have a wonderful holiday!

Angels!

I sit here and try to go about my day, I do fine and than waves of saddest overwhelm me time and time again!  I did not know any of the loss souls that perished in the Sandy Hook elementary school, like so many of us but now they are a part of me !  Holidays are around the corner and we all have to go about our business, celebrate, smile, go on as always, that is the way of life, the old saying is life goes on, no ifs and buts about it.  My promise to myself is that each and every time I feel sad, I will remember all the angels smiling down on me, I will feel their hugs and warmth all around me and let them bring light and happiness into my life. I feel, that God would have never taken them away, for no reason at all, I have to believe there is a purpose and a reason. I believe in angels, and it comforts my soul to know that 27 more beautiful angels will be opening their wings and give warmth to my heart and soul. 

To give!

I love being a giver, always have been and always will!  I like to see happiness and joy!  When we were growing up, my mom did her best with giving as much as she could for the holidays to her children and those she loved.  I learned at a young age what it was like not to have what others had.  Looking back on that, I now know it is what made me the type of person I am and I would not want it any other way! I learned by giving in the long run, fulfills your heart a lot more!  Thank you mom for all you have instilled in me, you were the kindest person I have ever known and taught me well!  I love you always and forever!  Till we meet again in the heavens forever and ever!  xxoo

Disrespect vs.Bad temper!

I had a long conversation with a friend , about the difference of a bad temper vs disrespect, my opinion is a bad temper is when you get cut of driving a car and you curse your ass off or have no patience and fit out at an object not a physical human being!  Disrespect is something all together different, that is when you are a person who just uses the excuse of having no patience and is just down out rude, arrogant and just a plain rotten individual.  By the time the conversation was over they agreed more with me than before,  examples helped also, and I have quite a few to talk about!

Overwelmed!

I have been reading on whats happening at the sandy hook school!  How and why is this happening! When you send your child to school, they are suppose to be safe, not murdered by some derange manics with guns!  How dare they do this, how dare they take all those lives! God bless all those lost, and for all the families they left behind in pain and hurting from the gore of their being, in shock from not understanding what was to be just another day, not the end of their life as they knew it!  Just children, how dare those gunman walk the earth and the one who is dead already, I hope hell is burning you right now as I speak and your pain will be everlasting!  I cannot even fathom what its like for all the families, God bless them all, for their lost is great! Amen!

Before and afters!

Hi my friends just wanted to show you all how much will power my men have.  My husband Bob was very overweight but decided to loose it all and that he did, as you can see by the picture on the top.  My son Rob was not overweight but bulked up for football in the picture on the top, when football was over and done with it he decided he wanted to go back to his original weight.  They both did what needed to be done on shear will power, now me on the other hand needed a little bit of help by getting the lap-band procedure. LOL  What can I say no will power for me, but I do not at all have any regrets with the operation!  I love it and feel and look the best I ever have.  I have a before picture which when I get the courage to show all I will, you all will be quite surprise of how being overweight changes how you look.  But I want to say, that no matter what weight you are, always and I mean always be proud of who you are, inner beauty far outweighs outer beauty!

Dylan!

Little Dylan, my great nephew, I love this child so much!

Good night all!

Time to take an Advil  for my back and neck and headache and try to get a good night sleep without waking up 3 to 4 times a night!   Even with not getting good night sleeps, I still love life and if God allows I plan on being around for a while!! 

Memories!

Like the corners of my mine, I just love that song from Barbara Streisand's movie The way we were!
Going through all my photos is making me kinda of mushy right now!  What could I say, I am just a sap for memories and all those I love!

Nothing better than family!

There is nothing in the world like family, in Manhatten NY at Christmas time, last year!

Snow storm!

I love this picture, I find it very calming and quite!  You just know that when your inside your home everything is warm and cozy and safe.

Christina and me!

My niece Christina and me at the Ice ring in Woodbridge for a birthday party.

Cousin!

It was great reconnecting with  my husband cousin Bill at last years wedding, he was in our wedding 30 years ago!  He is a lawyer and a very good one at that!

Fun times,  last NewYears Eve wedding with my husband and son

                                               

Best part of my day!

The best part of my day is going home to people who truly love me and I them! There is no better feeling than that! You know the saying there is no place like home and that is the truth!

Last Night!

I was watching the X-factor last night, I have had my favorites since beginning of show, but last night a really enjoyed 5th Harmony's performance.  They all have such nice voices and together they sound just great!  I really hope they get to be part of the top 3.  Fingers cross!

Last Years tree!

My last years Christmas tree, very festive don't you think!

Ready!

Yes, I just recieved e-mail that my labels are ready for Alfonso's Homestyle Italian Meatballs!  Now for the meatballs!  LOL

Thats all folks!

Well went through the album and thats it for now!  I know you are glad, because once I get this picture taken thing down pat, you all will be so tired of me. LOL

Giants Game!

Bob and Robbie at a Giants football game last season!

Me and the family!

Hi guys, just going though the Picaso album and came up with this pic. at least we are not upside down, just wanted to let you know I did not solve the problem of upside down pictures but I will work on it!  lol  So here we are the three of us, the love of my life. 

Me and my son Robbie last New Years Eve, I love this picture! Very proud of the person he is becoming! My husband and myself are very proud of him!   Whats a mom to do, I love to brag about him!

Oh my!

So much to do and so little time to do it, I will need a vacation after Christmas!!!  No matter what I still love the holidays what could I say!!!

Oh Boy!

I think, I found out how to fix pictures, but the problem is it will not allow me to do it!  So as of now enjoy my tree sidewards, upside down or any other way it is showing LOL.  I hope the next pictures I send do not do that!

The more I try!

The worse it gets, I am trying to figure out how do get my pictures right the more I do it the worse it gets.  I am determine to get it right, but as of now I need a break from it, my brain is feeling like mush, computer savoy I am not!  Whats a girl/women to do? I know for now its pack it in and go to dinner with my husband and son!  LOL  Later my friends.

Help!!!!!



Well as you could see I am not able to rotate pic. to upright position!
Not a happy person right now!
A little help please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The reason it is on side is because this is a different pic from last one.



Our christmas tree




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Our christmas tree, great I learned how to get picture on blog now the problem is how do you
rotate it so it will not be upside down!  Until I fiqure this out enjoy my tree, it really is a nice one. LOL
Oh boy, I just keep making this worse, how do you rotate this crap!  Now I cannot get rid of me off this thing.  I really did not want to get my son involved, he is a great kid but for some unknown reason for himself he always figures things out, as for me it is a big, big, Huge, problem!  Thats when (me) mommie dearest comes out!

Positive vibes!!!!!

Labels for meatballs approved and ready to print, now all I need to do is get through the holiday and start this business in full swing!  I will let you all know when in store, please send lots of luck my way!  We all know anything new is scary!  Positive attitude is always there for me, but when negativity surrounds you it could get a little ruff!

Me experimenting with my cell phone camera yikes scary.lol

Me experimenting with my cell phone camera yikes scary.lol

Mondays!

Mondays are bad enough, plus the rain makes for a bad start to the work week!  Oh well whats a person to do, oh I know, just be glad you woke up at all!  Life is wonderful!

Really!

A person who says to you its not always all about you says it because most of the time its all about them! They don't care about much of what anyone says!

Move!

If I hear the word move one more time I swear, (I cannot say the rest) but the word move should be use this way or least that is the way I was brought up, excuse me please could you move for a second, I don't care how busy a person is, manners is instilled in you no matter the circumstances!  Some people should remember that, behind close doors as well as in front of them!

Sometimes!

You know sometimes when I wake up in the morning I will remember a dream sobbing for my mom! I realize that no matter how old you are you never stop missing the people you loved so much in your life! I remember most her touch!  Funny, of all things just her touch!

Friday!

I am so on schedule, and if I say so maybe even better than that.  Guess what LOL tree is decorated yea!!!!  Going tonight to get chopmeat for the meatballs and I enter a sweepstakes the Ellen show is doing!  It ask what would be the best thing you could want!  Now you have to know what I wrote, of course I wrote about my great Alfonso's Homestyle Italian meatballs and the dream I have of marketing them,  $20,000.00 dollars would surely help don't you think!  I have always believed in a dream and all the possibilities that come with it!  Until my last breath I will always believe that dreams really can come true!!!!  Love ya all!

Check!

Meatball labels approved, check Vacum pac sealer in, check  now I just have to wait for label to come in and begin the making of Alfonso's Homestyle Italian Meatballs.  I figure if a person can make a successful  business by stuffing a cupcake I could too, with a good Italian meatball!

Label!

I was just send the proof of my label for the meatballs.  I have 4 proofs to choose from!  Decisions, decisions!  Need to show the family for opinion! 

Old Friend!

Just ran into a old friend I have known since I was a kid!  The pass is a great thing!

Tree!

Tree is going up tonight  and decorating Sat. Just saying!  Do you care, I hope so!  LOL

So much on plate!

Hi all, I have so much on my plate right now, feeling a little overwhelmed.  Believe me I am not complaining, well maybe a little.  LOL  I am the type of person that needs everything just so, one of a very few phobia's I have, the other being if you touch my curtains, watch out!  When the holidays come I feel like there is no way on earth I will accomplish what needs to be done and before you know it, Christmas is here I did it with no problem. The problem is I get so nervous about it and it takes a lot of the joy out of it for me. This year I think I have paced myself a little better, but than I decide to start a little business venture which I believe you all know what it is " Alfonso's Homestyle Italian meatballs"  and now between that and the holidays I think I kinda of did it again to myself and all the anxiety is setting in , big time!  I want to get it started right away, while the plate is hot!  I have everything in the works as I speak, and now I have to just approve the label and start making the meatballs all while I get ready for the holidays!!!  ekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!   Okay, now I am calming myself down and saying everything will be good, everything will turn out fine, calm yourself down and breath, long deep breathes. I refuse to have a heart attack just because I think my meatballs will be the best in the world, and Christmas came at the wrong time LOL.  I feel so much better now that I let you all know how I feel!!   Later friends! 

Remarkably successful people do!

I just read a great article on yahoo small business advisor title Eight things remarkably successful people do!  This makes sense to me and for once I could relate to something that was not over my head!
Good read, take a look for yourself! Going to make this article my diary for my new venture!

So excited!

I have finally made the move I always wanted to make, thinking of all the possibilities that might be open to us!  World he we come!

Alfonso's !

Alfonso's homestyle meatballs is now off and running! Heres to meatball lovers all around the world!

Words of the day!

I had a dream last night and this saying just kept popping up, I repeated it in my mine and was to lazy to get out of bed to write it down. I said to myself I will remember it, no way I would forget!  I wanted to write it in my blog because it sounded so great!  Well guess what for the life of me I can not remember the saying, but the feel good feeling it gave me still is there!  Go figure!

Meatballs!

My husband makes the best meatballs ever. We are telling him all the time we have to patten this recipes and start selling them!  Me being Italian and the only other meatballs I ever loved were my Grandma's and that was it!  My husband tried and tried to make meatballs for years and than wham bam thank you Mame (LOL) he created the perfect one! They are a hit no matter where we go, if we make 75 meatballs there gone if we make over a 100 they are gone!  People always ask who made the meatballs they are great!  Let me tell you all meatballs are not always good and tasty , trust me I know from experience, whenever we go out to eat and meatballs are on the menu we buy them and not one of them have even come close to how good my husbands are. So now I have to figure out out how to get them out there to the public and get it moving!  Food products are a lot harder to get started than other Ideas because of health issues involved!  I just can not give up on this Idea, because they are just so dame good! Oh well wish me luck because I am going to need it!

Words of the day!

Drum roll please,  Thank God it is 1:00 in the afternoon and not I just start the work day with 8 hrs (can not say the words I really would like to say, never know who's watching!!!  LOL

Love these sayings!

I sound like one angry women, but I am not just love these sayings and they are true!
Garma is a bitch!
What comes around goes around!
Every dog has his day!
Payback is a bitch!
Crap, now my mine went blank, know there is a lot more than this!  LOL

Reach for that dream!

Reach for the dream, stretch your arms out pull it in, its all there for the taking! The mine is a wonderful thing, just believe and go for it!

Just another thought!

God I am sick of this place, big time. Why didn't I listen to people who loved me when I was younger  telling me I could be what ever I want to be as long as I apply myself!  Of course I did not listen, but I wish I would have. There I go again with the would have, could have, should have syndrome. I swore I was not going to say that again! Just goes to show you I don't even listen to myself!

To all young women!

To all the young women out there, a word from the wise, well not so wise because if I was I would not be in the shoes I am today, meaning having to deal with everyday verbal nonsense day in and day out. Be your own person, independent and educated. I do not mean give up on love, I mean if love does not work out you can just move on and don't look back!

Times!

There are so many would haves, could haves, and should haves said in this world, but from my
own experiences the only thing that really matters is the now and your future endeavors that matter the most! The crying over the past never gets anyone anywhere, this coming from the mouth of me!

Pick-its

Just check my lottery numbers I had 3 out of 5 on Jersey cash 5 which got me $11.00 and the powerball number which got me $4.00.  I see an omen here my friends and that omen is the powerball is coming my way!
Now tell me, wouldn't that be a wonderful and glorious Christmas present! LOL

A wonderful weekend!

I have to tell all, I had just a wonderful weekend of family and relaxation to date.  Decorated for Christmas in a warm home is great for the soul! Had a nice dinner on Saturday, a spare of the type moment when we were just heading down to union beach for a ride, and decided to just stop and get some pizza, than it was off to the movies to see Twilight (breaking dawn part 2) which we all thought was the best one of them all!  My husband enjoyed it which for a guy is a miracle to say the least! I draged him to everyone one of them, but to my surprise he really liked this one. Than there was Sunday and visiting the mom-in-law with football all day and the piece of resistance was my Giants win and win they did big time for sure!!!  I keep on saying that the Giants will win the Superbowl again this year, I just have that feeling!   Time will tell!  Monday is here and I feel so good about my weekend that even work will not put a tamper on it!!!  Later my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feeling guilty!

Pretty much feeling guilty because my life is pretty much back to normal and a lot of my fellow New Jerseyans are not even close to it!  We went first hand down the shore this past weekend for the first time, words can not even describe what we saw! The boardwalk's are all gone, a lot of beach is gone, house after house destroyed. The eeriness we felt was unbelievable, to tell you the truth. The little we saw was enough to tell us how vast and far it all was along the eastern seaboard coastline and inland too. On this thanksgiving I have a lot to be grateful for and give thanks to!  Yes my life is back to normal, and all my prayers go out to those that are not! 

Feeling good!

I am feeling back to normal with all the drama that has unfolded in the last month!  For me it feels like it is in the past and its time to move on!  The storm that blew though our state is the worse we have ever seen, it scares me to death that it could happen again! I feel for all those that want this in there past but are still dealing with all the hardship this has caused in their life's.  I listen to the news and they are saying about the climate change and how this could effect all of the east coast in the future. Being a New Jerseyan and never having to deal with this type of weather makes getting though this so much harder.  I always wonder how all those states who get the very bad hurricanes and tornado's every year deal with it over and over again!  They loose everything and built it back up just to loose it all over again!  I guess you have to do what you have to do, and only the strong will survive! My state of New Jersey is strong and we will survive and prosper once again, that is one thing I am the most sure of!

Normal, where are you!

Need to get back to normal, if that is possible.  One minute electric is on and you think great we are back to normal and than!!!   You guest it off it goes for maybe 3 hours and than back on again!  The good part of this story is it is coming back on.  I feel so bad on what everyone is going though still in there lives.  I sit here with a roof over my head with heat and electric and I am complaining about the lost of electric for a short time.  Smack me in the face please, a good one real hard and make it hurt will ya!  We are spoiled people at least that is the way I am feeling right at this moment!  Normal is almost back for us now in my area, the beaches I grow up with are gone the rides I went on as a child are no more!  My memories of my mom waiting and looking at us patiently are still there but the place where should would stand were claimed by the ocean!  So so sad, words can not even explain how I feel at this moment as a tear rolls down my eyes! Being pretty much content in my life, makes changes very very hard to accept!  But it really is the truth when they say you can not stop Mother Nature!

The Halloween that was'nt!

I was talking with my husband and said I cannot even believe there was no Halloween this year for the kids of NJ! All the towns in my area pretty much cancelled the kids walking the streets because of the fallen trees and down wires. I heard maybe this town or that town will be allowed out from 12noon till 4pm here and there! Without communication in lots of area word did not get to all! I had a lot of candy with no kids to eat it!  I really feel so bad for the kids, this year  really was the Halloween that wasn't! Who would have thought that would ever happen here!  In all my 56 yrs of life never once did I miss a Halloween until now! Instead of me eating all the candy I have given a lot away for the kids to enjoy!  No, it is not the same but there will be a next year and the year after that and after that again and again!
Kids always prevail in the end, and we as parents fill for them the most, but of course that is what parents do the best!

Not on track at all!

Today is one of those days, where I feel like I am in a fog with no way out!  10 days of cold and 2 days to thaw out is not enough. lol.   Thank you God for not letting our electric go off once again and keeping us warm through the night!  I pray for all those without and count myself very lucky and fortunate at this time! Power for those I know went down again last night but it did come back on. Trying to get back on track seems a little harder than usual in every aspect of my life, but with time for me at least things will fall into place. Not much else to say right now, all seems a dream and I wish I could wake up and all things would be good again!  I need to remember, as I am sure we all do that time does heal and we are strong people and will prevail in the end!

Not all but some!

I have to write this, some not all of the police in Rahway NJ, need a good dose on how to treat people with respect and a little concern also. My brother-in-law was on line waiting for gas at Shell gas station on St. George ave. in Rahway people overheard the person who runs the station talking to a police officer and the officer saying you have to give me $100.00 an hour to protect the area which the owner a women said really, okay I will just call city hall and the captain and tell him what you want an hour, of course he (the police officer turn around and worked for what he was really suppose to get and it was not 100.00 an hour! Come on price gauging! Than I was on a line and this older gentleman said to me another police officer again in Rahway was so nasty to him just because he was waiting on a line before the gas station was opened. He said to me I could see if I looked like some teenager with a mouth who was going to start trouble but I am a 65 yr old man in a Plymouth who just wanted gas. He was so upset for no reason at all. Now is that the way a cop should act? He said the way this officer talk to him like with complete disrespect and like he was a complete trash. Someone should tell them to just do their jobs and shut the hell up, like they think they could tell people to do!  Stress was high no doult in my mine, but if you are not causing any problems their is no need to treat a person like they are a hoodlum, that's not what wearing a badge is about!  I think a police officer should get evaluated at least every 5 years to make sure like a teacher they can still do the job! I mean really if you could treat a teacher like that why not a police officer. Think about it, some officers out there should not be even able to carry a gun if they have an anger problems at all! I understand being a police officer is very dangeous in this day and age but a good cop knows pretty much a good situation from a bad one.  In a time of crisis, people do not need cops to be the bad guys they are there to serve and protect the public not treat them like shit! My son wants to be a cop, all I said to him is being a cop is not about who you think you are its about taking pride in what you do, its a job, there is loads of crap out there, you just have to know the difference, a badge does not give you the right to step on people!  Please understand me there a loads of great cops out there, but sometimes you get a few that make people judge them all!

10 days! (Hurricane Sandy)

Hi everyone, it has been a long journey, for my family!  No, no flooding for us, no our house did not get ravished by the ocean, I truly feel for all those that lost everything they owned! I was one many people that lost electric and food and all things that we are use to in our everyday life. We are spoiled by all the luxuries in our life, electric, heat, TV, looking good if you are a women and if you are a typical male, Sundays on the couch looking at football!  Warmth and light,  food in the fridge and enjoying your home knowing it is there for you and your family is by far the most wonderful thing in my life. After this I will never take what I have for granted again, I promise you that! After what little I have been through by far is a wake up call on how fast things change.  I cannot even fathom what people who have lost everything is going through right now! If I am being honest with myself, I have had a lot of selfish moments of feeling sorry for myself which I am not embarrassed at all!  In my area, for the last 10 days it has been no gas for cars lines and lines of people waiting in the cold, no heat and light and searching for places to get food!  Businesses after businesses closed and panic for everyone!  Street after street of trees on houses, roads closed and trying to find ways to those in the next town over.  Somewhere that took only 5min. to get to will take an hour or more. I was pissed off more than once when I was told by certain individuals, people have it worse than us, which of course I understand that but I don't need a person who gets all there privileges back 3 days into the storm and acts like I as a person have no rights or feelings at all for those people who have lost everything while they go home and are in there nice warm house and eating a hot meal with there love one! My answer to that person is look at yourself before you open your  mouth! Are you telling me I do not have the right to be upset that my life is upside down and I do not have the right to say I am cold and tired, really.  Any lost is a great loss no matter where,who and what people occur!  A person of older years living in the dark without heat and electricity for days is bad!  Being afraid of where your next meal is, is bad, wondering where your next pay check is coming from is bad, wondering if you have a job to go back to is bad! Wondering if the tree on your house that just caved in on your roof will be covered by Insurance is bad!  So please don't tell me we do not have it ruff we do, maybe not like others that loss all but enough to know we might loose it all too!  It is never about who has it the worse it should be about who needs help no matter what or where it is!  A selfish person is to me the person who says it, and half the time the person who says it is usually just worried about themselves in the long run! Thank god for people who really care about all people, not just some!

Horoscope update! Aries-10/26/12

This one is good and boy does it relate to my life, It reads: You can spot irritable people at a distance. If you can't avoid them all together, you take care not to arouse antagonism on any level.  Really now how do you do that, I will tell you how!  I am around irritable people 24/7, just a statement, a question will set of fireworks that will make you say, what am I doing here!  It is so much easier said than done but you do what you have to do!  Sure I would love not to even have to deal with a person or persons like that but certain things are not under my control and being made to look stupid has been a big part of my life the last  14 yrs you kinda get used to it!  But and there is a but,  I know, me , myself and I know, I am far from stupid and that's all that really matters.  No one and I mean no one will take my worth from me come hell or high water!  Sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Try as you may, not going to happen! Oh and I forgot you could take that to the bank!

Great!!!!!

I was down the cellar putting cloths in the dryer while my son was taking a shower, that next thing I hear is flowing water, my sewer pipe has a hole in it!  Not a great way to start the day, I could not fine the number for the plumber so I had to call my mother-in-law and explain the situation at 6:30 in the morning in complete detail! So after it stop leaking I dried the pipe and put duck tape over the little hole, good thinking right! Nope not to the hubby, he said I was crazy LOL thats nothing new!  Well, the good news is the hole is right over the sun pump and  I finally got the plumber, he will be here after 3 pm today  thank God, the bad news more money! I swear when it rains it sure does pour!  No matter what  I will make this weekend as good as the past three weekends were so help me God! Latter my friends!

Thursday!

Hi fellow bloggers, one more day of the daily grind and weekend is here, now all we have to do is worry about the up and coming storm next week.  The weathermen on the news are acting like this could be a perfect storm sort of thing! Not excited about the outcome of this one.  In my area if electric goes down, it takes forever to get back on! Forever for me is a couple of hours to a day, but I know people who have been without electric for days, so I really need to zip it close and stop complaining!
God forbid I cannot blow dry my hair!  The weather today looks and feels like rain, but I do not see a drop in sight!  Two more hours  to go and off to the dentist and home for the night!  I have been watching a new show on Thursdays  WB channel called Beauty and the beast, It most be about the 3rd remake of this show, but I always seem to fall in love with the beast, go figure.  Phantom of the Opera, I did the same thing I was routing for the Phantom instead of the nice boy who she love!  Boring for sure pick the Phantom.  LOL I just love to ramble!!!

Quite time and politics!

Home from work and just enjoying some quite time, calm and relaxed is the best! Me and the hubby looking at Chris Mathews on Msn NBC. My mom-in-law hates this channel she is a Fox news channel person.  I really believe the Fox channel has one of those swirly things with the colors that hypnotize you! LOL no seriously I think it says hate Obama , hate Obama and the swirly thing does something to your mine and the results is you hate Obama!   LMAO, The family tease my mother-in-law horribly and she gets so mad when my husband, nephew and son do that!  She once was a die-hard Democrat and now is a die- hard Republican.  I don't have a problem with anyones political views, we all have choices.  The problem I do have is, when I walk through the door, do not beat me over the head trying to change the way I see things.  I am a firm believer to each their own.  You like who you like I like who I like, that's your opinion and I have my opinion!  I have learned that politics and talk can turn out very deadly to say the least!  I do not pretend I know much at all about politics! Most of the time I pretty much feel they say what they know you want to hear and than pretty much do nothing at all!  We all have a form of tunnel vision, one way or the other!  If you talk to a Democrat they blame Republicans and visa versa!  Me I just think in 2 weeks we will know who the President will be, and than I pray please make it better, please make the changes you promise, please do not let us down again!

So far, so good!

Things are moving along so fast.  Can you believe it is almost Halloween than Thanksgiving & Christmas or whatever other holiday all my friends get to enjoy! Today I am feeling very content, if that is the right word to use!  I love when I feel like that, sometimes in life things just go as planned and it is just so wonderful!  Rob (my son) is doing great in his first year of college, no questions need to be ask because it is very obvious to us he has everything under control and he knows we are here for him!  His acting classes are going very well, and he feels he is improving on his acting also! He knows January will be here before you know it and the movie will begin filming his parts, so ready he will be! I have learned my not so exciting life might not be exciting to anyone but me, but you know what that is okay! Each and every day all that matters is family, love of life and the joys of future days to come!

Horoscope update- Aries 10-24-12

Sorry guys, there are times when I look at my horoscope and it does not relate to me what so ever, but than there are times that it is right on the money, this one is so right!
It reads Your perception of yourself will be colored by the reaction you see on the faces of others.That's why it will be important to seek like-minded peers.  How true this is, I know first hand what that feels like. I am the type of person that likes people to like me, like what I am about, like to be told I did good, like to see approval on other peoples faces.  Now the problem is there are a lot of haters out there!  I for some unknown reason in my lifetime have let them weasel into my life! You know what I mean the type of people that if you look nice, will try to say you don't, the type of people if you say green they say red, the type of people that even if they have way more than you and achieve more than you, just cannot bring themselves to route for the little guy!  Since I seem like I can never  get away from people like that, I decided to say to myself, no one, no way who ever they might be and what ever or who ever they think they are is not better than me!  I have taught myself to believe that, it took a while but it has worked for me!  There are a lot of people out there like me, but who has the time to waste trying to find them, I figure just believe in yourself, be who you are and know you are the best of the best and when the person who thinks he or she is better, laugh to yourself and say no one is better than me, absolutely no one!  It took me years to realize it, but my self esteem is now in full swing and when someone dictates to me like they know everything which believe me I know lots of those kinds of people, I turn around with a smile on my face and think what an ass hole they are and I am so much of a better person than you will ever be!  Works for me and remember just one more thing, every dog has there day and it will always come back to bite them in the ass. LOL

Super weekend!

Another good weekend to add to my last few weekends, just a little annoyance issue yesterday, but it is what it is!  Still good never the less!  Watch the Giants game, and we all know it was a nail biter but we prevailed with yet another victory 5-2. It would be awesome if we went to super bowl again!  I am feeling it, just like last year, I sure hope that feeling is right!  Robbie and my brother-in-law are in this football pool and whoever wins 6 games wins, they won all six games, which was great the problem is so did about 16 other people which makes $3000.00 goes to about $200.00 ea. so since they are partners they get about $100.00 ea. (lol) The joyous faces went a little sour on that note but a win is a win, better that than nothing at all!  I am really feeling this weather, love the crisp morning air and the beautiful day we are having today! Life is good and I hope you all agree it is great to be alive.  Love to all, talk to you later my friends!

Its raining cats and dogs!

Love that it is Friday, but this rain yikes, is it going to stop anytime soon!  Do you know what it is like to have 5 dogs that despise the rain, believe me it is not a good thing!  The 2 girls are prima donas that give me the hardest time, god forbid they get a little wet (funny how they are so much like us women with the bad hair day and all lol). The 3 boys might not like it but they go out there just like a man and get it done (no questions asked just do it with no complaints). Boys go out first (done) come in, next I say go ahead girls and they both look at me like I have 2 heads, I have to go out there with them, I guess they figure if we get wet, you dam straight are going to get wet too.  So to make this short glad its Friday but if this rain keeps going you can bet I am going to be one wet women tonight!  Whats a mom of dogs to say, no matter what, part of the family and could not picture it with out them! Have a great weekend, if I do not get back to you!!!!  Love to all!

Oh boy!!!!!!

It is turning out to be a day from hell, it really is unbelievable how a good day can turn into such a bad day!!  To many personalities for sure, makes for a really bad day!  Lottery where Art thow?  LOL  Oh, crap, just kidding, all is not that bad, its just another day to get though and the good old weekend will be here!  I just keep saying one more day, one more day, one more day!  My son calls to tell me my nephew has gotten him into selling vitamins, and guess who has to get involve, you got it me!  How do I get involve with all this stuff I will never know!  I really cannot picture Robbie asking people do you want to buy vitamins, so not him, so mom to the rescue!  I will try to give it a go, who knows this could bring in the big bucks, LOL  Yea right!

(3:10pm) count down to home!

You all know what that means days almost over and home to the family, here I come! I don't think they mine so much, since I took the hubby's advise and left the stress at the office!  How right he was, I should have listen to him a lot sooner. I hope its not to late, you know what I mean the heart attack waiting to happen thing!  LOL, only kidding I will be just fine!   I so love chilly nights and a good movie and everyone home safe and sound and together,even the dogs love it, call me corny what could I say, I am just me and I love that about myself!  I am loving each and every day as if it was my last!  Life is good!  See ya later and have a great night or day, (depending) enjoy my friends!

My son calls me!

Hi everyone, my son Rob, which I am sure you all know by now (lol) calls me to say mom, I got an 87 on my math test.  I thought it was great, but he continued to say I wish it was higher.  I wrote an article some time last week about kids in college which this is a perfect example of what I was saying! The stress of passing and doing good, the stress of failing.  He wanted to do better, I get it but it was a good grade and I let him know that!  It was bothering him, and I am so happy he reached out about it and as a parent I or his dad was there to let him know, you did good, and we are proud of you!  I am so enjoying this experience of Rob's college years, it is another journey for him as well as for us!  So glad he knows we will be there for him every step of the way! Being close by and physically seeing him works for us! No regrets whats so ever that he went to a local college!  Another proud article from a proud parent!

Day almost over!

Yeah, made it through another day, the debate is on tonight as we all know, wonder who will kick butt tonight with all the bullcrap from both sides!  And the winner is? how funny is that, it always turns out to be who came off as the best speaker and not about the issues!  I love being an american, but sometimes I hear Italy calling me saying come, come sit in my villa in Tuscany and have a nice glass of white wine and just relax!  LOL Just a dream my friends only way it could or would be real is if I hit the lottery and we all know the chances of that happening!

Still on cloud nine!

Still floating in the clouds, from all the weekend activities, even being at work cannot get me in a bad
mood! Look it is already Tuesday , before you know it, Fridays is here!  Not much to talk because all I seem to think about is our surprise party!  I was saying a few minutes ago that work could not even ruin my day, but something just blew in that really could change all that! LOL. You know what life is good, even if it is not an everyday thing but when all is said and done, there will be a silver lining in the end, I promise you I will make sure of it!

The suprise of our life! (thank you son)

How could I put this, I have to be one of the most proudest moms in the world, on Saturday we (my husband and self) thought we were going to a surprise Birthday party in a hall. When the doors opened up it turned out to be a party for our 30th wedding anniversary!  My husbands mouth was open and all I could do was cry!  We never in our life would have thought that our son Robbie (who is only 19years old) would take it upon himself and set forth his plans on putting this party together and making sure it was a huge surprise with help from family!  It is not that we do not know we have a great kid who cares about family and friends, it is that he is young  a boy which usually the girls of the family always put together the surprises for the moms and dads!  People all night were saying what a great kid he is and we raised him good!  I truly thank you all, but I have to give the credit to Robbie, with being who he is from within which makes him the person he is!  We Love you dear son of ours and we are truly are blessed to have you in our life!  To all friends and family thank you for sharing in a special moment in our life's that was a surprise of a lifetime for me and my husband! 

Aries (Horoscope update( 10-12-12

It reads and I quote: Once in a while, you suspect that being good is seriously overrated.  I really do agree with this one, nice people majority of the time do finish last!  Now mine you there are lucky nice people who have surrounded themselves with other nice people, I on the other hand have not always been so lucky (which I again can not say, but one day I might) being nice for me has sometimes only given me a headache and heartache.  You see when your nice, people will take advantage of you, you will be the punt of a joke because you try to hard or something might come out the wrong way, you try to make people laugh with you, the next thing you know they are laughing at you! Loads of bad people succeed, why because they put this facade in front of them and be something or someone they really are not!  They are the furthest thing from being who or what they really are!  I do not want to say what they are (not nice words at all)but if you good read my mine, you pretty much would guess it, for sure (lol). I have had plenty of experiences of not nice people, and I have learned by experience that what goes around comes around and there is hope for nice people to finish first and not last!  Whats the saying every dog gets their day!  Believe me,its true be yourself it will pay in the long run! On that note have a great and wonderful weekend!

Fall, Friday, fun and memories!

What could a person ask for, Beautiful weather, its a Friday,and the start to a great weekend with football Sunday, Giants and 49's on the horizon.  Love weekends like this, no drama in site.   Since therapy, on neck the tension spots are less, thank the lord, which makes me a happier person in the long run!  After work today going to Trader Joes with the hubby in Westfield. It is such a nice town with a great shopping area with a lot of  restaurants and loads of people around on a Friday night patronizing it! The people of Westfield really do know how to support their town, which is really a good thing.
I have to tell you all, I just feel so content for once and my plans are to stay that way, leave all stress at the workplace and stay worry free is such a good mine set to have.  I have a lot to live for a husband who is not perfect (and neither am I) but no matter what I put him through is always there for me, a son that is really a great kid, and does what needs to be done (even if I have to ask him a few times before he does it) but if that is really all I have to worry about in the long run than I am one lucky women!  I have lost a lot of love ones, and the holidays bring back the overwhelming feeling of loss, but I get this smile on my face when I remember them and all the good times we shared!  Memories are special indeed!

Moving along!

That's what I do, just one more day added to the daily grind!  I play my lottery hoping like all of us, hoping  that when I look down at them my numbers will match theirs, LOL.  I know, I know but a person could dream right!  I will never give up that dream and I promise you one day I will get on this blog and tell you I hit it the big one!  Life is good and I am happy with what I was blessed with, but a little extra fun along the way will not hurt!  This week flew by big time which is good because another fun filled weekend is on the horizon and I am ready for it!  I like to give updates on my son, he still going strong in school and I am so happy about it!   Acting school is coming along good also and getting him ready for Jan. when his part begins, that's when he will be super busy!   Getting really excited about it!  Halloween right around the corner and getting ready for that!  I started buying the candy and it seem I am buying everything I like, not such a good Idea, I do not want the leftovers on this one!  Its funny, with the lap-band you could eat junk food but for me the proteins like chicken and beef I have a problem with! So promise to my self  "NO CANDY", repeat "NO CANDY" , okay who am I kidding absolutely no one! Later my friends!

Do you really care!

Hi my friends , sorry been so busy with running around and all, that this was very first time I have a chance to just breath!  I went to a college game in Delaware and had a great time on Sat. my cousins son did great!  Great weather for the tailgate party with family, was a lot of fun to reconnect with everyone! Did I tell you that, don't think so, having a senile moment, lol!  My 30th wedding anniversary was yesterday so we went to a nice restaurant called Autoro's in Maplewood NJ. They have all organic bread and cheeses and the best pizza!  They have this appetizer which is their own homemade bread with ricotta cheese and a drizzle of olive oil that was to die for!  They have a lot of specialty pizza pies, the one we had was called (shoot I forget) but everything on it was fresh tomato and mozzarella and all seasonings were fresh!  Awsome, for sure but because of Lapband I only had 1/2 of slice of pizza and 3 bites of the bread! Enough to wet the pallet so to speak!  Going on 3 years with band so do not feel sorry for me, I am really use to it by now! Lets say I never walk out of a restaurant over stuffed. LOL gotta go, till next time love to all!

Tossed and turned!

Had a great weekend and Sunday morning slept in late, the problem was Sunday night, all I did was dream of loved ones gone and tossed and turn all night! The good news is all I dreamed of was the people I loved and cared about the most, this blog is for them. My grandfather, the first man I ever loved with his warm smile I will never forget, My grandmother, who I cried for days on end knowing I will never see her in this lifetime again, My mom, my greatest supporter who loved me for me and was there for us all the time, God let you stay with us till we were grown and with families knowing we would be okay! My father-in-law, had a stern look but was there for you whenever you needed him. My sister-in-law Patty, a quite soul with a heart of gold, gone to soon, Mr Baird a big part of the family who would tell his jokes and make everyone laugh, even if he told them a million times, My dear Aunt Connie, she would be there for me in a minutes notice if needed and her Birthday calls to me each and every year to say Happy Birthday Fran, and to my Father, to all the what ifs and the could have beens if all was different in our lives!  Tossing and turning was okay last night I was with those I loved and missed the most in this world, the tears flowed even in my not so sound sleep, I know this because my pillow was wet with tears!

The to do list!

Love when my to do list is complete and job well done, well at least to me it is well done! LOL  I love when I accomplish what I set out to do, at work or at home, the same feeling no matter what!  Getting myself mentally ready for a busy weekend to come.  Going to Delaware to see a college football game, first of the season for me.  Fall and football is a great combination, you have to agree!  Lots of running around with family and friends makes my days and life complete.  I was feeling in such a slump for the last few weeks, so glad it has passed and if you ask me why did I feel like that, lots of reason but in all honesty it really was not in my control!  My Husband most of the time stays out of things but he saw how it was affecting me and decided to get involved. He told me you do the best you could do with what you have, that is all you could do, I decided to listen to him, (which is really not often, lol) so glad I did!  Thank you hubby of mine of almost 30years come Oct. 9,. I might not tell you I love you very much but I do! My Italian crazy ways, I am sure drive you nuts, but you stuck with me though thick and thin and that is all that matters!  Five to six years from now you and I will sit together on a bench watching the waves roll in at the Jersey shore if faith allows!

Its ruff when?

When you have a husband that gets right to the point, for example I am the type that takes each day as it comes and make plans in advance and age is not on my mine unless brought up to me!  I find with my hubby that when age comes up he will come out and say things like , you have only 20 good years left, or that you are over the half way mark.  I am 56 years old and I feel better than I did at 30, now that's how I feel, him on the other hand(by the way he talks) acts and I am sure feels a whole lot older and he is going to be 50. Why else would he always talk about age if he felt great!  I exercise and take vitamins and run around like a chicken with out a head 24/7. I plan for the future because you know what, I have one no matter how short or how long it may be, I will enjoy it till my last dyeing breath so help me God!  When I was a kid I would sit there and calculate how old I would be in the future, I would say the year 2000, I would sit there and figure out how old I would be that year, half the time I thought I would be dead already, lol (remember I was just about 12 yrs old or so at the time). I learned as time goes by not to worry about it and take each and every day and love life, now if only I could do that for the hubby and get him out of the doom and gloom mode all would be good!  I plan on being around for a while and hope he is up for the ride!

Debate time!

Tonight the big debate we are all waiting for!  The who could out talk over one another and who will have the biggest personality! I just hope that does not overpower the issues on hand and the problems this country already has! We need help and fast, we do not need promises that will not be kept!  We need things done not talked about!  Who do I think will come out ahead, not a clue but I do know that promises do not cut it any more and getting it done does!  My son is register to vote, for the very first time, he has his own view's and is not swayed by my myself or his fathers view's and that's the way it should be! This is not a baseball team or football team that happens to be your parents favorite and because your child grew up knowing only that, it becomes theirs also!   This is the future of the country and his or your child have a right to their own opinion,  as it should be! I will pay attention, will I think that this debate will really matter in the long run!  You tell me, has it ever matter before!  Sometimes yes most of the times no!  Talk is cheap, well not really because in the long scheme of things the people, we being the people pay for it!

Teaching myself!

I am trying to teach myself how to stay calm and relax. I am so tired of feeling like I have all the worries in the world, when in all honesty it should not be my worries at all!  I have been going to physical therapy for a back problem and when the therapist does my shoulders and neck he said it is so tight and knotted up! Its pretty much the stress of the day that brings it on!  After he massages my neck for about 10 min. I feel so much better only to have it return and be just as tight the next time I see him.  So now I am trying to stay calm, cool and collected no matter!  I sometimes feel like I am a heart attack waiting to happen!  I want to nip it in the bud, of course before it does happen, but lets say I don't and it does and I live through it to survive, changes in my life really will happen I promise you that! Of course if I do kick the bucket at least you will know what I was thinking that "being all the should haves and could haves and the why didn't I's ". LOL

Change of plans for college!

My son Rob decided to change his major in college to Physical Therapy, which I think is a great idea with a big (huge demand) out there for therapist .  He will finish his 68 credits at UCC than proceed to go to Kean or Montclair University to continue to get his Masters, with luck I hope he will continue with getting his Doctorate! We shall see time will tell with the Doctorate part of it!  My husband and myself are really glad on his decision!  Of course his dream is be in Law enforcement and he will continue his quest for that! He said Physical Therapy is his back up plan.  I still think it is the other way around but once again time will tell that also!  He goes to school each and every day with no drama and his focus is amazing to me!  I expected a lot more of negativity on his part, which I am so glad did not happen! The truth is  (as I see it)  when you want to succeed and be successful you can, my son Rob is showing me that anything is doable as long as you want it bad enough! He wants it very bad, and he is pushing full stream ahead!  He is so unlike me in that respect and I am so glad he is the way he is!  He truly is making us very proud parents!

Oh well!

I just checked my lottery tickets, I wanted to be able to say I won  , but of course, notta.  Now I have to think of what I want to say, for the last week, writers block still continues, and my enthusiasm is pretty much on a down hill spiral kinda of thing! My not so exciting blog is just that, not so exciting, what could I say every day is the same old, same old!  I know someone out there has to be going through the same thing I am, please God it can not be only me!  This weekend, let me think how busy is my schedule, oh right not busy at all! LOL  Next weekend we are all going to Delaware to watch my cousins son play football, before game we are having a tailgate party which should be fun, lots of great food, which of course I will not be able to eat a lot of because I have a Lap Band.  If you do not know what it is, its a band that wraps around your stomach so you eat only little portions of food. Food use to be my everything, that's why of course,I was fat. If I was bored food was my best friend and I was so dependent on it to make me feel good!  Well not always good because when I looked into the mirror I was by far not a happy women!  Now with 60lbs lighter and still trying to lose more I feel great but at times I still miss my best friend (food) who knows maybe that's why I am confused. Only kidding, I am so used to it now that food is not # 1 in my life anymore and new things have replaced it!  The problem with me is I get bored so easy with things, I just need that one thing that pops and I will fly with it!  I just hope I don't die before I find it!  LOL 

Dreary day!

It is a really rainy dreary Friday here in the state of New Jersey, but you know what, so what its Friday and oh so happy!  I love weekends because, I could be my own boss and do not have to answer to anyone!  There are no questions ask, and I could be just plain old me, which I happen to like, when I am not a raving manic that is.   All the stress of the work place has been coming home to my personal life way to much!  What to do about it is always the question I ask myself, and there never is an answer or a solution!  I love what I do, but sometimes it just gets to me. I find in life that there is never no easy ways of getting around things, that is why I am the way I am.  A strong minded women, with loads of opinions, maybe not  all good ones, but not afraid to voice my feelings no matter what!  Over the top sometimes, it depends on what type of person you are talking to, I might hear that from a person that when talking to,they are as stiff as a cardboard or a whole lot worse!  I learned from experience, and I ask myself would I want to be that type of person and my answer is always HELL NO!  LOL My promise to myself is to leave the stress at the workplace and treat my family with the love and respect they deserve, because when push comes to shove that's the only thing that matters!

Whats to say!

I am having writers block big time today, not in mood for much of anything. Thoughts are running in my head like,  you made your bed now you have to sleep in it, What have I gotten myself into, day in and day out, same shit different day, there has to be something better than this, kinda of mood day!  I don't know about you but I am having these kinds of days more and more often, than I care to think about!  I am not the type of person to feel sorry for myself, but for some stupid ass reason I am, so not me. I have a great kid, a marriage that is going on 30years this Oct 9th and a lot of great and fun things coming up in my life to looking forward to with family and friends!  But today, right at this moment I am feeling restless, and confuse about certain things and just plain out sick of thinking period.  I cannot wait to retire and move down the shore and begin anew, take walks on the beach on a cool brisk day look out at the ocean while the birds fly south, with the wind on my face and the sky blue as can be and just breath! 

The first college year!

I have always thought that a child should experience college years away from home!  For kids it is the in thing to do of course, leave the nest and fly and be independent!  The money aspect is really not a factor in their eyes for most of them, it is usually more so for the parents! My son Rob is going to a county college to get his associates degree than transfer to another college to get his Bachelors.  I have to tell you, I like that he is close to home right out of high school.  I really think (in my opinion not all kids are the same). it feels good to know and see any signs of being visibly stress from the pressures that you get in college more so than in high school. College whether it be a big University college or a local county college still has all the same pressures of work that needs to be done! Math for my son is not easy, his first test he thinks, he did not do well on it. He said to me that mom you know what the problem is, they do not allow you to use a calculator when taking a test in college like in high school!

Now I need to ask why do they let you use a calculator in high school in the first place, it makes everything so easy and takes away from the learning process in the first place. I know this sound crazy but think about this, the schools in New Jersey change clocks from the older types with the arms to digital types, so when a child looks at the time if it is 9:15 it reads 9:15  with the arm clock you have to use your brain a little more to read it!  I use to say to my son it is a quarter after 9, he did not know what that meant, I had to say 9:15, really are you kidding me, why did they change the clocks in the first place?  Now that I vented about all that, I have to get back to the issue of local vs. away!  Stress as we all know does crazy things to a persons mine, there are strong minded people and weaker minded people!  Rob, is strong minded where he knows he has a problem with the math and decided to go to tutoring the college offers for extra help!  I did not have to tell him he just knows, but if he was different and didn't get the help he needs he might have felt like a failure like a lot of kids might feel like.  Being a parent who visibly is looking and seeing any signs of problems will know what I am saying.  I have read stories of  kids who have had to much stress and they felt like a failure to their family to bother them with it all, and the outcome sometimes does not turn out very well! For myself I am very glad to see the signs of any sort and I am glad that he reaches out to us and we could physically be there for him at any time of need that he might have.  The county college works for us and it is turning out to be a very good choice with no regrets at all! As I write this my son text me to tell me he did not do great but at least he passed with a 76, you know what I said that was great!  I love that he communicates with us and we are there to give him the encouragement he needs!

Brand name Items!

Okay here it goes, every time I go shopping, like everyone else I look for bargains. When I go with husband and the son tags along I spend loads more money!  If I crab something and its not a brand name they flip out. I try to tell my son, (husband is pretty much a lost cause already and a waste of time and he is making our son a clone of him) that a lot of the time you are paying for the name more than anything else.  Of course it is all a waste of breath, so I decided to take matters into my own hands.  My son loves A-1 steak so (its the best and that is all there is to it, so he says). Really, I don't think so. When the sauce ran out I purchased America's Choice sold in Pathmark sitting right next to A-1. I put America's Choice steak sauce in A-1 steak sauce bottle and my son has not said one word about it not tasting right at all. He has eaten at least 3 steaks since and not one word of negativity has been made out of his mouth!  I also did it with honey  he has to have Golden Blossom not anything else so you know what I did and again not a word, the only problem with honey it could be pretty messy and sticky and not worth the hassle in the long run.  And even though husband is a lost cause he has come to realize that he likes the Americas Choice chicken breast better than Perdue so go figure that out!  Saving $2 to $3 per item is a big thing to me especially if I am just paying for a name! It really is all in the head! LOL

Last day of summer!

It comes and goes so quick, time to put the Lawn furniture away and get everything ready for the coming months! Holidays with friends and family and everything in between make me miss all my love ones who are gone even more. They are in my heart always, that will never go away!  Its a time to reflect on the past and a time to look to the future! Its a time to sit in front of a crackling fire place with a big wool blanket and a hot cup of cocoa with marshmallows of course (can't forget them) close your eyes and thank God for everything and everyone he blessed you with in your journey of life! When you feel low like I do sometimes, I always reflect on my passed and a smile is back on my face or a tear ( but in a good way) when I remember my Grandfather saying to me, come on Francine here's money for an Ice Cream cone and than we would sit on lawn chairs in front of the house watching the passersby go by.  Great and wonderful moments in my life, never to be forgotten! I have all of those memories with a lot of new ones and even more new ones to come!

Horoscope update (Aries) 9/20/2012

I like this one and it is so true! It reads: Even though you hope for the fortunes to favor you,you realize that the most worthwhile things in your life will not happen by chance!  Believe me when I say this is so true, I came down from the clouds a few days ago and realized that I have to make my own destiny and not wait for and hope for dreams that would and could not happen!  Now, I am not saying the I give up on the whole positive thinking thing, I really do feel if you want something to happen bad enough it will, but I also know that while you are waiting you have to proceed with said plan and make it happen for yourself!  So I will forge along and make my dreams come true until good fortune blesses me with any joys it wants to bestow upon me and mine!

Hey all!

I know, have not been writing as much as usual, reason being absolutely nothing of interest to say! I am beyond bored to death, and still trying to get things rolling with my Notary business! My son went to his first acting class last night and enjoyed it!  The teacher is thinking of doing one on one with him because he has his acting role coming up, so we have to discuss it!  As always or if not a lot more than usual, I am experiencing restlessness. For the life of me I can not describe this feeling of take me away Calgon!  I do not mean away from my life and family, not at all, if you ask me I must being going through my changes (which I thought I been there and done that type of thing). This feeling will pass, it always does and than the mine springs back to life with all my hair brained ideas.  I could tell you one thing today is a beautiful day, now to just work on this mood thing and all will be good to go!

How cool is this!

My blog is reaching so many, and of course me being me needs to tell you!  United States 27%  Australia 5% , Taiwan 4%, Canada 4% , Turkey 3%, United Kingtom 3% and last but by far not least China  54%   Thanks to all for caring about my Not so exciting life maybe a little blog!  When I decided to write my everyday life, I figured it would give me something to do, never thinking that anyone would really care about me at all! Of course the one thing anyone should do is assume anything at all!  When I assume things it means I get myself into trouble or I am pretty much dead wrong!  In this case I was dead wrong about all of you guys and I thank you!  The antics of this middle-age Italian women from New Jersey who gets stressed from almost everything around her, but truly loves life even with all the complaints, which half the time is her own making ( well at least that is what her husband says) bull crap for sure,  has reached a lot of you to my surprise and joy!  Thank you, thank you, thank you!!  I promise to continue to just be me and hopefully I will not bore you to death! LOL

Rainy day and ?

I pretty much curse, I do try to control it, but today, it seems the only thing in my thoughts is Bleep, Bleep, awe screw it ass hole is the word!  I can not seem to get it off my mine.  To tell you the truth I really do not want to!  It is very significant to this day and the way I feel! Its raining and attitudes are flying and feelings are running amok, so I find it very appropriate for the day! I left my blog for a good hour to do quality work, which I have told you I love to do makes the day go by faster and you feel like you accomplished something.  But I still have that saying on my mine, and cannot seem to loose it!  How many times can a person say it!  Today seems to be a record breaker for me!  LOL. Do I mean it out of disrespect, no it is just a way to vent, maybe not the right way but today it is my way!

Old and restless!

LOL wish I could say young and restless, but it is what it is!!  Feeling big time like help me, I need something new mood!  Makes for a ruff day when you feel like that!  Good thing is it is almost 11:00 and soon I could eat my lunch and fill my face with my chili and cheese lunch! Protein at its finniest!
It is quite today, which makes for a long day, I need phones ringing off of the  hooks, people coming in non stop and just plain old excitement in my bones! Hate feeling this way, and I know it will pass, but getting really tire of it in the long scheme of things.  I think the feeling really is I want to feel usefull not useless, does that make sense to you!  

Start of a new week!

New rules will be and I state: I will have positive thoughts, no cares for other peoples attitudes or faults, their problems not mine. Worry about my state of mine and my health first and foremost! All that matters is the people I love which is a lesson I have learn from other peoples actions! Depend on myself and do not count on others to help!  Learned there is good in people but a lot more bad in people! Learned to give others chances to be the person you thought they were, learned the hard way, you can only give so many chances and in the end they are a lost cost and not worth the energy or the time!  Learned that there are a lot of haters in the world that wish you to your face lots of luck and behind your back stab the crap outta of you!
Did it take years of my life to learn these lesson, yes it did! Do I believe this , yes I do!  Do I want to go through the rest of my life with that feeling, no I don't, do I have a choice in the matter, no not really!  Do I ever think people will change, no I don't. Do I think I am perfect, not by a long shot, but I do know I purposely do not set out to hurt others, and make them feel useless and alone!  End of story!

Pathmark shooting in Oldbridge NJ

I always wonder as I am sure you all do, of what makes a person go over the edge and hurt innocent people!  Detail of the Pathmark shootings are coming out of how and what the people in the store were hearing and seeing!  You never think this could happen to you, you mine your own business you go to work and it is just another day, not ever thinking it could be your last! My son works in Shoprite, and you wonder of all the what ifs and the maybes that this would happen there! Who would have thought, in a movie theatre or a grocery store you would take you last breath on earth there!  What are the signs, what could have change the outcome of what happen to all those beautiful people.  The sad part is it happens, we feel for the families, our life's stay the same and they feel the lost the rest of their life's!  Time goes by days and years and people forget until it happens again!  They say to look for signs of mental illness, people saw signs a problem in the person who killed all those people in the theatre shootings but no one listened to them!  In the Pathmark case people have said he never got over his mom's death, is that a sign that he would kill people!  It is almost impossible to pinpoint something like this to be prevented!  I wish there was a way, but in all honesty, facts are you will never know from one day to the next if and when it could happen again to anyone of us! I now make sure when I see my son walk out the door to say I love you Rob, be safe, its pretty much a must for me to do that!  I taught him to lock the doors at home, I taught him to lock his doors at night when driving to work, I told him to put his seat belt on in car, I told him to never talk to strangers when he was young, but how do you tell them that you will have to watch out for a derange person at a movie theatre or a depress person who you worked with at a grocery store. How do you tell a child that?

Just say it!

Okay here it goes, politics is not my thing, I am a housewife, working women, and mom!  I add my little bit of earnings each and every week to put food on the table and some extra needed enjoyment for the family. I vote because its the right thing to do, do I believe what they say is always true, heck no!  Do you?  Promises are cheap to say and hard to keep, whether it be from a  Democrat or Republican.  I believe no one, at this point of the game and what month is it Sept.  November is right around the corner and I am very confused on it all!  Do I like Obama care, yes I think I do, I like that all people will have Insurance!  Am I partial to it yes I think I am, why do you ask because I have a 19year old son who will stay on my Insurance till he is 26 years old and I do not have to worry about him not having insurance. Is that selfish of me, no I think not!  Do I think anyone really cares about my opinion, I think they don't. Do I care if they care about my opinion the answer is heck no!  So as you could see, we all voice our opinions and ideas and thoughts, we all talk in circles, we all think we know everything, and we all think we are right!  Now do you really think that will change anytime soon, Hell no! Do you really think anyone cares, as fast as something is given to you is as fast as it is taken away!  Do I know what I am saying, no not really, like most people who talk about politics very seldom do? Do I care what you think because I said it, heck no! Whats the phrase (freedom of speech). What I care about right now, is making ends meat, while the Democrats and Republicans go at each other with loads and loads of bull crap to get people like us to vote for them!  Than we vote, and we get a winner, than we wait, and wait, and than we are back to the same place we left, the four years pryor blaming the other party for not being able to get out of the hole we are in and we need more time! Okay how much time do you need?   Does it ever end, HELL NO!!!!!!

Mums (plants)

Tis the time of season to go look for mums and get ready for fall.   The place where I always go to buy them decided to close their doors and homes are being built!  Bummer for sure!  Now I have to find a
place that sells huge ones.  Tomorrow me and the hubby will begin our journey for the perfect ones. LOL  The past few days my mood was so so, meaning not good!  I very seldom wake up on the wrong side of the bed but I must of fell flat on my face off the bed and popped up to continue the days in rear form.   Now today however, I am getting my personality back which is a good thing for my family LOL. Do you ever wonder what makes a person get in a mood so bad, which is really not in their character at all!   I do, all the time, I should go see someone and talk about what bothers me and maybe they could find out what is the stem of the problem.  I have a feeling I know what it is so that is why I pretty much do not bother wasting time on the situation. I have two choices deal with it or move on.  What do you recommend?   I know you can not answer, mainly because you do not know the problem which I cannot say!  Don't you just love people who talk in circles!  That should be my middle name, I am getting pretty damm good at it!  Later all, weekend is upon us, and let the happy mode begin!  Mums here I come!

Totally You!

That's the way you have to think sometimes, you have to make time just for yourself, so you do not disappear into the wide yonders of the hemisphere.  I decided to take control of my own destiny and get things done my way!  I need something new and I plan on getting it!  Everything I needed to get started is in motion, now it is a waiting game of getting the calls and to go see my first client!  The first of everything is always the hardest than it all becomes easier as you move along! Whether it is totally me or totally you, no matter your age, it is all up to you to begin anew!  Think now, think future, think I can do it! I have finally said this is my time and I want to expand my horizons and to make changes and try new things. This time I am finally listening to my heart and not thinking of the what ifs any more!

Lazy sort of day!

Having a lazy sort of day, work is quite and in office by myself, phone is not ringing and about to go bonkers from a bored syndrome. I know, I am one sick person, who wouldn't love this type of day, but the day drags on forever and I want phones ringing, people talking, excitement and usefulness going on! Today is for sure not that type of day!  I have finally gotten my name out there for Notary signing on Mortgages. I plan on doing that after my full time job to earn extra Income.  Have to go to staples to get paper and files pens and extra Ink.   Some packets for mortgage documents could be any where from 80 to  150 pages long , two sets have to be made all the time one set for client and one for mortgage company!  I am nervous for sure, I think I mentioned that I have gotten called quite a few times but mentally I was not prepared to do it.  My husband seems to always make me see the long picture of things.  I have sold Avon for 19 years and I never made money, because I always just bought from them and my commission money would go right back to them. My husband finally made me see the light about 6 yrs ago and  I finally saw the money from it, it gives me no kidding at least $5000.00 or more extra income a year added to what I make already. If I applied myself more I could make more money from it! As of now to many things going on but I am happy with what I am making.  He now is telling me to get my notary moving and in a couple of years my name will be established for the work I have done and I could be my own boss on how much I want to make and earn per year!  So with all that said staples on weekend, dress clothes ready for the calls and me a nervous wreck until I finish my first call and after a few of them, I will wonder to myself why I sweated it in the first place.